Depression Support Group
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I dont know where to start. I am feeling depressed more and more everyday. I feel so lost and I dont know what to do any more. I just feel like everything is going on around me as I just sit in one place and not move. I am trying to get by and do what I need to do everyday bc i have two kids who need me. But its been a hard few months. Last year I had a MC and then a year later, I had another MC. I have two Angels in Heaven and two with me. I just feel so bad and want to cry all the time and there are times that I cry at night when I am going to sleep. I try to talk to my boyfriend but he dont really want to talk about it and I wish that I could talk to him and find out what he is thinking and feeling about what has happened in the last year.
We moved 4 hours away from most of my family and 6 hours from his family. We live in my grandmothers house, she passed away two years ago in oct and 3 days before the day she passed away I had the second MC. We named our Angels in Heaven, Angel (Oct 1 2011 and Sklyer Oct 19 2012). I think that I am trying to do my best to move on as much as I can do and I know that I will never forget my Angels in Heaven and I will miss them all the time and i know that I will be thinking about them all the time and everyday. I even have a few Angels around my living room for them.
The worst thing about it all, is that the morning I found out that i was pregnant , My boyfriend had been home a week from spending a week in ICU. I went to class that morning and this women that my mother and I have made friends with came to our car to smoke with us and we told her and she said "I would kill myself if I was pregnant." I was in shock and I didnt know what to say. I mean I would NEVER say that to someone that just found out that they were pregnant and knowing what happened just a month ago. I mean what knod of person would say that to someone. I have had been having problems with the same women since then. She has been saying smart things about things that is no need for it.
I am trying to get some help and find out what i need to do. I did go to the doctor and I am ok and got a clean bill of healthm, but i know that I am done having or try to have kids. I have two boys and that is graet with me. I dont know if I would be able to make it again if I lost another baby, and this time its been harder then before and I have a hard time at days. I just have to think about what I do have here with me and there are times that I just go and hug my 2 year old and it helps.
I am just lost right now and not sure what i am going to do and its hard with the holidays right now. I have no friends that I can talk to bc they dont want to talk about anything or they dont know what they should say to where it wont hurt me anymore than I am already hurting. I just dont know what I am going to do. There are times that I want to give up and just run away and not look back. There are times I just want to stay in the bed and do nothing. There are times that I have been thinking about just driving in a direction and see where I will end up, but where I am at right now thats hard to do since I dont really know much of the area still and I cant leave my boys.
I am hurting bad and its not getting any better. I am always stressed out with school and my home life. I dont do any thing with my boyfriend, i mean we dont go and do any thing anymore and when we are home he is on his phoene or doing something with the tv or computer and not spending any time with me. I have told him how I feel but its like it goes in one ear and out the other. I just dont know what to do any more.
We moved 4 hours away from most of my family and 6 hours from his family. We live in my grandmothers house, she passed away two years ago in oct and 3 days before the day she passed away I had the second MC. We named our Angels in Heaven, Angel (Oct 1 2011 and Sklyer Oct 19 2012). I think that I am trying to do my best to move on as much as I can do and I know that I will never forget my Angels in Heaven and I will miss them all the time and i know that I will be thinking about them all the time and everyday. I even have a few Angels around my living room for them.
The worst thing about it all, is that the morning I found out that i was pregnant , My boyfriend had been home a week from spending a week in ICU. I went to class that morning and this women that my mother and I have made friends with came to our car to smoke with us and we told her and she said "I would kill myself if I was pregnant." I was in shock and I didnt know what to say. I mean I would NEVER say that to someone that just found out that they were pregnant and knowing what happened just a month ago. I mean what knod of person would say that to someone. I have had been having problems with the same women since then. She has been saying smart things about things that is no need for it.
I am trying to get some help and find out what i need to do. I did go to the doctor and I am ok and got a clean bill of healthm, but i know that I am done having or try to have kids. I have two boys and that is graet with me. I dont know if I would be able to make it again if I lost another baby, and this time its been harder then before and I have a hard time at days. I just have to think about what I do have here with me and there are times that I just go and hug my 2 year old and it helps.
I am just lost right now and not sure what i am going to do and its hard with the holidays right now. I have no friends that I can talk to bc they dont want to talk about anything or they dont know what they should say to where it wont hurt me anymore than I am already hurting. I just dont know what I am going to do. There are times that I want to give up and just run away and not look back. There are times I just want to stay in the bed and do nothing. There are times that I have been thinking about just driving in a direction and see where I will end up, but where I am at right now thats hard to do since I dont really know much of the area still and I cant leave my boys.
I am hurting bad and its not getting any better. I am always stressed out with school and my home life. I dont do any thing with my boyfriend, i mean we dont go and do any thing anymore and when we are home he is on his phoene or doing something with the tv or computer and not spending any time with me. I have told him how I feel but its like it goes in one ear and out the other. I just dont know what to do any more.
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Do you think anxiety is genetic or comes from your environment? What are your thoughts?
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Many of you know Mr K told me to "shut your mouth" in March 2025 when we took a road trip to Alpena Michigan. Since that time, we have had lots of ups and downs but I have never intentionally hurt Mr K in anyway. And when we first started dating in 2024 he let me know, although he is an engineer by degree, he has an extremely low EQ. Overall, he is ok (not off the charts nice like other guys in...
Sorry about your loss of your babies I cannot imagine what you are going through.
Would a family member or friend be able to come visit you to give you support by helping with your boys for a few days/weeks? Taking care of yourself is very important now as you are needed to hold the family together so even if you go for counselling alone will help you learn how to cope with your loss and how to keep on doing what is needed.
Good luck to you and gentle hugs (((hugs)))
Gargoyle
As for that woman, you might be better off cutting her out of your life. Negative people can be like poison. It's better to drop them.
I wish there was a support group in my area but i dont know if there is or where to start looking to find out if there is on in my area. I am still new here, been here just over a year and its a small town. I am just 5 minutes south of Memphis,TN but i dont go into Memphis bc of the area that I am near and how big it is. I would rather go to Nashville, TN then Memphis, tn (lol).
Its just hard and I am trying as best as I can to stay busy with things to do around the house and the kids but there are times that I just feel like shutting down and closing the door on the rest of the world.