I lost the love of my wife on March 3rd to diabetes. I lost my son because I have been a fruit cake for the past 2 years. I want to be in my sons life but I want to be a functional person first. I want to get my shit together, get up, out of bed, turn off the TV,get a job, and have a life. Why is it so hard to do, But so simple to say? I have almost lost everything I care about in life except my father and aunt and they aren't in good health. I am worried that when they are gone I will not have a reason to live If I don't do something to change my cituation I have multiple problems running through my head all the time. I cant stop worrying about things in my life. I am almost completely broken. The only thing that helps me forget is my xbox 360. I don't know how to fix my problems so I just ignore them completely. When I play my game, My problems just go away and when I get off my problems are back. I have a hard time focusing on one problem at a time. This is just some things on my mind right now. I know this doesn't seem important to some but I don't know how to start. If I could have some advise on how to just focus on 1 thing at a time. Is this a chemical imbalance or something. When I was a child I diagnosed with a Attention Deficit Disorder. I don't really know what that means. Doesn't that just mean that I have problems with paying attention.