I truly understand you Katie, I feel exactly the same. I just take one day at the time, trying to busy myself during the day and concentrate on my work so I don't think about the other "stuff". I am here to listen and help you if I can.

I am getting all the help that I need. I am on meds and seeing people twice a week.
Thanks guys. I will be fine.

I don't understand,hon: how can NO ONE you talk to feel what you are through is "not a problem?"How do they phrase "not a problem"--and how do you portray how you feel?Do you make it clear that you mean utterly hopeless and apathetic/suicidal?No human being worthy of being either doctor or friend to you is going to react by saying nothing is wrong with that! Unfortunately,it sounds like you are in an extremely deep depression, one where you may even be seen as calm by others, when in fact you are numb.And even to feel "calm" while having thoughts such as yours--that is a sign you are hunting very,very deeply,and that you definitely need to get help.I understand how it feels to be in that state--how the thought of trying another med or doc seems tedious,pointless, and pointless--and when one is that insurmountably overwhelmed, sometimes the best thing to do is to check into a hospital--where you WILL most likely be able to be started on different meds and see another doctor. When all other action seems too much and too little--if possible, a hospital or outpatient clinic might be best.You are not thinking clearly now if you believe there is no point or value to your life, and in a hospital/clinic setting for a while people can help you make the hard decisions,most that you need the help with.
Please hang on, hon. So many people care about you here and in your "outer world" life as well,I feel sure.No one wants to see you caught under all the layers of pain you are under--and it absolutely IS possible for you to get out from under them all again.I have done it and so have many others here. Please don't give up on yourself,and please,too,if you can,keep us updated.Hugs..

I do not know. It is kinda an either or thing. It kinda depends on why you shared that with us. If you mean what say you have planned then it is best to get a hospital's emergency room, call your pysch or therapist fast.

RICHARD

I am seeing my psychologist tomorrow and psychiatrist Saturday. I will write some things down so I can truly share how I am feeling
And also. I am sorry for having bothered you all.

Hon,who on earth said that you bothered us?!? Your posts and your emotions BELONG on this board, among people who understand and want to help you out of such extreme pain as you're in. Of course,you have concerned us--you are one of us,and we CARE about you!--but concern for the people in pain here is a recurring and comprehended,expected thing at D.S.--NOT a bother!You are in exactly the right place to voice how you feel, no matter WHAT you feel,okay?We all want to hear from you and be able to keep seeing how you are doing,so please never,ever think yourself to be a "bother."!!! Ever. Please do come back.

you are not a bother - write down everything - and I mean everything and give it to your doc....be completely honest with them and I'm sure you will get the help you need. don't wimp out and say only a few things - tell them the whole shit load of stuff. they are there to help you. and I think I can speak for all of us here when I tell you that we do not want to see you gone...we want you around for a very long time

I'm with guy on this. I suck at it. But I think he's right. You have to tell them everything. They really want to help.

Katie, we are friends now, we can help each other. ((HUGZ))

Thanks everyone. I will be fine.