I'm still here... that's say'n alot....!

Since you post it diabetes is one of the few illnesses that is reversible but with a positive attitude you will overcome depression. Which is a contradiction but is the cure.

I think we'll get there. Don't give up

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kl1rRxG251s

flippin internet gremlins stole my post.....or maybe it was that tab button.....gerrrr...!

so let me tell U a little about my experience and you will C why my first reply is actually a positive response....

When I came to my sense's or rather realized something was amiss I was just about to press the trigger. plain and simple.

I knew something was wrong BUT didn't know what. I typed in depression in the search bar and found this place. I actually found this board but i didn't know how to post so I just read for a few days till I figured it out.... DEEEP dark waters I was in, uncharted.... All I could do was just get as many drugs/downers/pain pills as I could and chase them down with vodka/beer/whiskey... U name it I did it just to keep myself fucked up. All this while wall street was crashing and noway to fill the family coffers so I did more.....and no one was charging me for the pills or booze.. they just gave me the shit cuz they knew something was wrong. My friends in real life, well some of them turned out to be real patient with me and some bailed. That was in '08 now its '12 and If I live long enough I will have been here four years....

Things did turn around. I view life so much different than before '08. It seems as if the dark waters have abated BUT the hanker'n for pills and booze? They are my constant reminder of where I have journeyed..... mile posts of where I have been.....

I'm not saying this approach will work for you. It was ill advise to myself BUT there are good people here at DS and the offer good advise. Hell alot of them are in therapy and are quite knowledgeable as to what is happening.....

So ride the waves of depression because It can't be escaped BUT it seems one can out last it...IF.... it really is outlast-able....

Yes, there is a cure. You keep moving.

I exercise almost daily. It really helps with the lows when I dig in, find those reservoirs of anger (and strength) within me, and push against the resistance of weight and distance, and win. Helps with that "woe is me" feeling.

I have read many accounts of recovery but like recovery I think it may be a lifelong thing. Like once you are an addict you are always an addict of some form. I think once you have depressions (yes I am very clinically depressed) there is always a tendancy. I am not thinking or focusing on that now though. I really believe there is a recovery from this or I dont think I would be working so hard. I would probably have given up.

I too get really depressed and feel like it won't let up. I fell like I am in darkness. I pray for the light. it comes and goes but boy i get so tired. My prayers are with you.

life will never be all happy, one. Two, when you have these thoughts, "w/ planning", I think it's time to see a doctor. When one is unable to TAKE CARE of themselves, then it's time to let someone else do it.

Be kind to yourself. You can make it through this. Things will ALWAYS change, luckily for even these moments.

We're here, mal.

I know of some folks who have only one bout with depression, but most folks I know have to live with depression at least in the background for life. It is like diabetes where you have to manage it carefully. I have read some studies years ago where depression causes physical changes in the brain and that is permanent. Which isn't to say that you will always be depressed. If this is making any sense to you then you are smarter that I am right now lol.

Annie

I have read that the longer you have depression, the longer you have to stay on meds for it. My husband refused treatment for 25 years. He is now a lifer, but doing pretty well on meds.

I'm an up and downer. But exercise and a positive attitude have helped. If you feel like you are sinking then maybe you need to see your doctor for a med change? And do keep track of your life, and see the things that need to be changed, and change them.

Love the avatar, by the way.

The answer to your question is yes for some and no for others. The chronic depression may be (and I said may not will) a life time thing. Exercise and positive thinking do go a long way in controlling it. But if it is a life time deal it is not the end of the world. I don't expect to ever be cured but I can still be happy. It just might take some effort from me where for others (not suffering from depression ) happiness may just be a normal natural occurance for them. We have to work for it. Big deal !!! It is totally worth the effort.

I asked my doctor t*e very same question. S*e said yes. I'm not so sure. I've *ad depression since an early a*e (10). (sorry, missin* two letters)

There's always a cure and when cure's fail there's always miracles x

@ LaydeeDi - like your answer; holding out for miracles keeps me sputtering along!

I expend so much energy just surviving/tolerating each day that there's no positive energy left to motivate/push me for changing. Wish I had something to drive/push me so I can at least get some inertia behind me. If how things are now is how they will continue to be, I won't make it - that's a fact...