I have ask the same question to the group too. They just tell me to see a therapist. Well, the therapist is not God. He might help, might not. Without seeing a therapist, my life is better. I met a girl. That is luck. I found some ways to make money.( Because I cannot work). This a choice.
Find a job coach to help you. Experiement things to help your pain. Do not give up.

You seem like a nice person and I hope things go better for you. If you can, read how to win friends and influence people a classic.

Always here to listen if you want to talk or vent. There are millions of reasons one could be depressed, from underlying, deep issues, or a chemical imbalance.
I think some of the thoughts you've been having are normal... I think most people contemplate death. Most people find life unfulfilling and not meaningful, at times. I think the strength in us comes from when we allow ourselves to feel those moments, sit with them... without distractions. And get past them. Because you will be happy again one day. Remember the last time you were really, really sad. You felt happiness eventually, right? Timeee

And it's not a horrible idea to see a therapist, though I know they're expensive. I find venting on here, listening to others opinions and advice, is helping me. Don't give up. <3

Amber, we know that feeling. Once there, it is so hard to crawl back out of the depression pit, but it is doable. It is so tempting to stay in that pit, and depression thrives on us isolating and taking no action. I have to make myself do 2 (or on good days more) things each day. I seem to feel a bit better once I check them off. Going outside for a short walk is another way to start getting into action. You do have a purpose, even if for today you do not see what it is. We are here. Comforting hugs.

Thanks everyone

yes , got to admit it life can feel pretty crappy at times. really after seeing how far pong has come since the dawn of video games, that i wouldnt be surprised if i was racking up points surviving a pile of hellashush trauma in the bonus round on a suicide survival game where everyone plays to the death. dont drop out now, you just started, im going all the way and win this game if i can. got to admit you have to be tough to make it through what i have and it doesnt get easier, the bonus round is only for the pros got to be tougher then nails.

I am sorry you are going through this. Your life is so special and it will get better! Have you tried speaking with a professional about what you are going through? Having someone like a counselor or a therapist know about what you are dealing with can help a lot! I hope everything gets better!