Depression Support Group
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Back in a really bad place no matter how hard I try I cant find a job, people are letting me down all around me, Im slowly going crazy I cant eat I cant sleep I feel like nothing, i have no control over myself as far as Im concerned Im in hell on earth I wouldnt wish this on my worst enemy, no light at the end of the tunnel Im better off dead things are just going to get harder and harder I will lose my sanity and Im probably going to die soon, I seriously dont deserve this how can I be in this situation, not many people care and those that do cant help me.
Seriously, life will take a big fat shit on you if you let it. People will let you and and everything will and is falling apart. Then after all this destruction, you rise up again.
If you are a religious person, which Im sort of on a weird level, you have to look at it as a test. This is life saying "Okay lets see how much shit we can throw his way, and lets see if he can pass this."
Guess what? When you are still standing after the smoke clears, and the people that you though were your friends are gone, and everything you thought was a truth was a lie....you have a fresh start. Use it.
Let those people go on with their lives, and you go on with yours. Thats the meaning the of life, to keep going and learn, and become stronger. Its a skill. You can do this, you just have to dig deep and go for it.
These things pass. I promise.
You owe yourself more than that. I love this quote...
"Only when you have lost everything are you free to do anything." T.D.F.C.
That struck a cord in me a long time agao. At first I thought, you know that quote means I can just off myslef. Then I thought on it more after my "incodent".
It means that the stigma of doing good, and society telling you that if you dont have the good job, and the nice car, and the white picket fence, you are a loser. Thats not true at all.
Those things arent for everyone. You carve your own life, your own sense of worth.
"You are not your job, you are not your bank account, you are not your fucking khakis" T.D.F.C.
It just goes to show that society will drive you fucking crazy chasing after cars and credit and nice shit we dont need. These things are just a comfort zone you stick yourslef into to pass the fucking time.
You dont need any of it. You just need to be right with yourself,and a fucking car cant do it for you.
Society will fuck your head up, truly.
"In order to completely philosophise about society you must immerse yourslef within it completely , then take yourself out of it completely" M.S. 2012
Thats what you are doing now. Hang in there it gets better, then carve your own path.
Roxie