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I Want To Self Harm Again

afreshstart
afreshstart

Hey guys so I have a dilemma here. I’m not sure if anyone will respond to this but I am just very depressed right now. The weather for the past 2 days where I live has been dark and rainy all day so it’s not helping my bad moods either. Anyways. I’ve been out of my usual cheerful mood for a very long time now but I act like I’m fine for my parents because I don’t want to burden them, and same goes for my friend. Also I was looking at my ex’s tumblr and found out that one of their friends killed themself this past weekend. They were heartbroken to hear the news.


This made me think. Then I thought about how awful I feel about my weight and how I am never going to be loved and I just want to harm again. The thing is though that my mom does “body checks” on me because a few months ago I harmed so badly. So ever since then she has been doing body checks on me, which in turn causes me to not be able to relapse and release everything that I need to, by the form of cutting with my razor. I know cutting isn’t right but I’m all honesty it helps me. If I was found to be cutting again by my family that’s a risk of going to therapy longer and even getting my car and electronic privallages taken away, and more stuff I’m orobably forgetting. If my friend found me cutting, she would tell my parents instantly.


Anyways. Is there places that are hard to spot when people cut and are hidden? What’s things that help you cope? Methods? Tips/Tricks?


If you are still with me now...long story short...I am depressed and want to cut again but I need new methods. 

amicrazy
amicrazy
I hope no one comments and gives you new ways to hurt yourself. Talk to your friend. Talk to your parents. Let them know you feel like relapsing. I agree with your parents about doing body checks. Good for them. There are other ways to cope. Talk to someone. Find someone in this group to talk to.

I use to self harm.. if you have problems with your body now how will adding more ugliness help down the road? It won’t! Don’t add anything else to your body. No more cuts. No more scars. Look at your old scars and see how far you have come. You can make it through this.
OlderCPer
OlderCPer
This is not a support site where people come and tell you how to cut and hide it from your parents or knew ways to cut, we don't do that here. It'd probably be a pretty easy way to get banned from DS.

Cutting/SI is a Learned Behavior, a bad one....so, when you're not cutting, it doesn't mean you can't get everything out that you need to, you just need to learn healthy, safe behaviors, healthy coping skills. DBT skills are especially useful for people who Self Harm. Seeing a Therapist should not be seen as a punishment, you have some serious Mental Illnesses that don't just go away, your going to have to treat those for a long time, perhaps most of your life, that's going to require a Therapist. If you really want to get your full "release" start being honest with your Pdoc and Therapist so they can help you work through your issues and get you to a place where your Stable and not depressed and needing to carve yourself up.
sharaninmd
sharaninmd
Sorry for how you are feeling. Talk with your parents and let them know how you are feeling and that you want to self harm again. They will want you to get the help you need. You need to be able to talk about your feelings so talk with your friend. Be honest with you psychiatrist and your therapist so they can give you the help you need.
afreshstart
afreshstart
Okay thanks you all for your responses.
sunnyface
sunnyface
I’m sorry you are feeling depressed and that you feel the need to hurt yourself. You mentioned seeing a therapist. Is this person not helping you cope with your feelings and your destructive behavior? If not, perhaps you should look into finding another one. There is a professional out there that can help you sort through your challenges. This life is far too precious! There are many different activities out there that can help get your mind off of yourself. Sometimes, we get trapped in our thoughts and this can really bring us down. What is it that you enjoy doing? What makes you happy? Do you belong to any social groups or do you participate in any sort of physical activity? Maybe your friend would join you in a walk, a bike ride, or a gym routine. Have you thought about volunteering? There are many options either locally (maybe in a church) or online. I find that reaching out to people (serving) can really give one a whole new perspective. Put down the electronics, especially social media, and enjoy what’s before you. Social media has the tendency to make us feel inadequate and vulnerable. Try it for one day and see how you feel mentally and physically. I actually just deactivated my FB account and I have to tell you, I feel relieved that it is gone. It was difficult at first but I’ve found other things to fill my time. My thoughts are with you!
gypsymoon
gypsymoon
I used to self harm. I understand the feeling of needing that "release" that self harming can give you. But don't relapse. Take advantage of all of the resources around you. Instead of self harming to release, talk to those who love you, draw, write, create art, bake, do something to take your mind off of it. And when all else fails, I have found that screaming really helps. I don't know where you live (I'm in the middle of no where in the woods), but find an empty field or somewhere in the woods, and just let out some good, deep down from the belly screams. If you can't go to a field or something, just screaming into a pillow works too.

I hope this helps. And please try to remember, you are loved!
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