Hey friend, you're definitely in a very bad place right now. Would you like to talk!? Please do not! I know you're very important to someone even if you don't think it.

thank you. i don't think i am important to anyone. my family uses me and ignores me. i have no children or husband and i am sick. it's just getting to be too much. i called the suicide hotline tonight and the lady made me feel worse.

We wish you good luck Anna and our prayers are with you. Please try to go to the hospital if possible. Things can get better and problems solved. I am sorry that no one would drive you to the surgery but you have a family on this board who cares and hopes you get well. .

Bobby,
What you said meant a real lot to me. Especially the part about saying I have a family on this board who cares and hopes I get well. You know, this sounds really sappy I guess, but that's all I every really wanted is a family. the family I got born into is not a family, we just share a bloodline. And I keep trying to make them into a family and make them care and they just don't and its endlessly frustrating. Someone on the suicide hotline told me that I am worth something after I told them about my family because they said my family treats me like i am worthless and they do. Thank you for encouraging me to go to the hospital and get help for myself. I am so disgusted and fed up with everything I just feel like giving up. But what you said really helped. when you said I belonged to a family here and people cared it just was exactly what I needs. Thank you so much.

Hi Anna, it seems that you are feeling a little better than when you first wrote. We are here for you. I agree that you should go to the hospital. I have been admitted twice for OCD and I had very good experiences. I am in a similar boat as you. I have never been married or had children. We are not alone. I know a few others in the same boat or maybe they had been married and had a child but have been alone for a long time. It doesn't seem fair, I know. I am sorry that your family treats you so badly. The thing to do is to spend less and less time with them. They are toxic. I will only be up for a short time but I'll be around tomorrow. Let us know if you go to the hospital.

P.S. You are God's child and that makes you very important and you are an important part of DS.

You are important to me. I think it would be less frustrating to accept you have a toxic family and stop trying to make them care. You need to look for family outside your biological family. I would make myself crazy if I didn't finally accept that my mother and brother were incapable of changing. And just accept that's who they are.

Your words were very kind and things can be tough, my spouse is having severe anxiety and it seems no matter what we do, it does not get better. When you're experiencing things you try to be present-centered, did I do something good today within my control.

Candidly I have messed up some things, am doing well, but one thing that held me together is that I modestly helped people, which meant my presence on this earth is a good thing, and so I'm meant to be here and the world is a better place with me. So you can do some good things.

Regarding family and circumstance, having lived more than you I think, things can work out or even out. I was bullied when young, I think I was a nice person, did not fight particularly well which is a problem if you're a boy, and had some hard times. Got married to a wonderful woman and my son has had a great life, sports captain, girls, popular, fun, he's had a great life and I've been a part of it. And if you're a parent, at least a decent one, you'd rather suffer yourself than have your child, so I'm grateful and I think in the end I've had some good luck and things evened out.

So I hope the next part of your life is better Anna. Things don't happen by themselves you have to work at it, perhaps study or look to get a better job, have goals and work towards them. So I hope success and happiness will be part of your life in the coming years and you can play a role in making that happen. Good luck and prayers are with you.