Work, family, and life in general makes me want to kill myself too, so I can absolutely relate to how you feel. At least you’re not alone.

Thanks everyone for the insight... I'm still trying to decide what to do instead of pharmacy, since I don't think I will stay in this field. I'd like to get back into art, and I've looked up some staffing agencies that specialize in artistic jobs. They'll know what skills and credentials I need to be marketable, as well as what's available. I'm not going to kill myself over a stupid job. But life is too short, and I don't want to spend one-third of the rest of it in that place.

So sorry you're feeling this way. Sending up prayers.

What do you like to do, Enthusiasm for something can translate into opportunities, so does being persistant, I had a job I hated, so I sent lots of letters out to companies that were in the same field as I wanted to be a part of, still keeping my old job until I nailed a new one, it worked for me, you have to be a bit smart and scope out the company you are writing to, someone who goes the extra mile to find out what they do makes all the difference, well it did for me.

be a nusiance and be determined, that does count for a lot, probably email now, I am very old now so it was a letter and another letter, and ANOTHER letter until I got an interview, that was 30+ years ago, but I doubt anything has changed and you can leap over recruitment obstacles, so you get the ear of the right person, good luck with whatever you do, but remember things are rarely as bad as they seem.

sorry things are so rough right now. I have a very difficult unhappy work environment too. I try to just ignore it as much as possible and get in and out as soon as I can. sometimes I fantasize about a great job and nice life and that kind of helps to give me a mental break usually when I am laying in bed. perhaps you could continue to look for another job, even if to just give yourself the hope that something better could work out. also, I just saw your post about being single and people assume you can quit. me too. no, just cuz you don't have kids doesn't mean you are "free". I get that. maybe you could just keep coming here and get support to get you through this rough time as you try to sort it out. I know where you are coming from though. I have had such awful times at work that I would rather die than go in. I think you can get through this.

I am here if you need a friend. How are you now?

Hi lovethypeople... I'm okay today. Thanks for asking.