I'm so sorry you're hurting so badly and having so much trouble with your job.
But Honey, bad jobs are not worth ending your life. There are many many jobs to be had, but you have only one life. I've had horrible jobs. I ended up crying a lot of tears and finally quitting. Ill keep,you in my thoughts and prayers. If you need to talk, I'm here. God bless you.

I'm so sorry that you are feeling hopeless right now. You aren't alone. I've been suicidal because of work related issues and I know it can be very tough to deal with.

Having a bad job is very discouraging. I just switched from a toxic work environment but new ones trying is terrible so once again still looking. It is frustrating but I agree jobs will come and go. You won't always be there just continue to look and see what else is out there.

Does your state have a disability program? My thought behind that is you take a leave of absence, file for disability insurance and look for a new job. Sorry you are feeling this way. Ive been there too... What are the specifics of the job that is making you feel this way?

Red, I know you have a really strong work ethic and that's one of your amazing qualities. I'm wondering how long you've been at your job. Are you eligible for FMLA or does your job offer short term disability? I ask these questions because these two programs would allow you to take some time to maybe go to therapy once or twice a week - if you don't have the time right now. I guess I'm suggesting finding some support. Working a job you hate can be extremely stressful and having a little extra support can make a big difference. I'm hoping things get easier for you soon.

I don't need disability. There's a chick at my workplace who's husband is on disability and for someone who complains so often about having no money, she sure calls out A LOT. Plus she gets a new truck every few months. From what she says, they both honestly sound like they're taking advantage of the system and I'm not that type of person. I'm in therapy-- I saw a new psych on Wednesday, He increased the strength on one of my meds. My counselor has been on vacation for the past few weeks, and although she gave me her email, I didn't want to bother her. Everyone's entitled to a break, and she's one of the best counselors I've ever had. So all I've had basically are my mom, my best friend, and crisis services-- all of which I used yesterday. I'm not going to kill myself. But I want out of this job.

Sorry, I know there are people on disability who genuinely need it. I wasn't trying to spit in anyone's face. The job is high-stress, it's a desk job, and I feel like the duties of the job (entering orders, handling rejections, talking to bitchy nurses, etc.) aren't right for me. I like helping people and I get a lot of satisfaction out of a job well done, but I'm very overwhelmed by everything else right now. Plus it's a toxic work environment-- everyone's quitting. Moreover, I feel like I have to wear a mask every day that I'm there-- I feel like I'm stifling behind it. That's part of the reason I'm so intense on here. I have no other release. And what's even worse is that the mask is beginning to slip off. Even at work.

I wrote a long response but it disappeared. Dam internet.
Take a week off. Contact your therapist. The thread title is serious so take yourself seriously on this issue.
Work will survive without you for a week and you might figure a way of dealing with the stress.
If you keep going you will be Like a hamster on the wheel.
Changing jobs takes time. Perhaps think of a less stessfull job. The stakes are too high to get bogged down with worries about career path.

Are you venting or are you having suicidal ideations ?

Quit your job. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. If it is so bad that you would rather die than continue, may as well quit, right? And see how it goes? Too often people decide to kill themselves rather than make their lives easier.

Let me make some suggestions about job search gathered from a family member who has successfully secured several jobs and promotions.

1. Network A lot of jobs come from who you know. Make friends, listen, compliment friends, and look for help.
2. Research You come into a first interview, know that company thoroughly, read and research it. Let your interviewer know you prepared for the interview.
3. Workhouse issues or problems Better to have the interviewer ask, and do not hesitate to discuss potential problem areas with a convincing area. My family member got a prominent job though he was the youngest applicant.
4. 90 day action plan I had a family member who had no clear response to what she would do if hired. Another was hired above 300 applicants based upon his detailed plan. When you can lay out a clear and impressive vision of what you will do if hired i

I'm not going to kill myself.

No job is worth that stress. Take the time off and figure a way out. As far as I know you have no dependents so do what you like

Just because I have no dependents doesn't mean I can just quit my job. I still have obligations and bills, a mortgage, HOA dues, etc. Don't assume that just because I'm without dependents that I can do what I like. That's just wrong. Furthermore, it's just me out here, so I have no one to rely on if I have no job. I can't afford to be irresponsible like that.

I am so sorry that you feel this way,but you are worthy to be here and you have a lot of people pulling for you,and I am one of them!!, try to stay positive! I know its hard to,but if you say things to yourself by saying positive affirmations.I have also wrote letters to myself and to my depression,that has helped me through the tough times!! I hope this helps!!