Cheer up. I'm pretty sure it's just a phase. Everything will get better in time.

I'm sorry you are suffering so much. Please take some time to think over what you really want to do with your life. Do you have a friend or famiy member you can talk to? Are you taking medication for the depression and seeing a therapist? I have been where you are and now looking back I am glad I am still here. I still battle depression but now I feel a purpose in my life and a reason to get up every day. You will find it too.

Reach out to someone, think about anything GOOD in your life...it can be as tiny as green grass in your front yard. There's hope, don't give up! I'm sorry you're feeling so bad, think about how you can get help to push through these feelings.

Many of us wish for death but we hold on and persevere day by day. Sometimes it gets better, sometimes worse. Overdosing can make you very sick, can damage your organs, or make you go into a vegetative state from brain damage. I knew someone who overdosed and badly damaged his liver and kidneys...the hospital was unwilling to give him an organ transplant because he was deemed suicidal. Also, getting your stomach pumped is not pleasant.
I am sure that there are people in your life who need you and love you dearly. Hold on to life please.

So, I'll tell you what sucks worse than being depressed and feeling uncared for... waking up in a strange bed, in a strange hospital with a charcoal tube down your nose into your stomach because the pills you overdosed on didn't kill you, they just made you really, really wish you were dead....and after your medically cleared then you go to the Psych ward, oh wait lemme backtrack a bit, while your on the medical ward you're still on "suicide watch" so there's a nurse or attendant in your room 24/7, it sucks having someone in the bathroom with you when you're trying to use the toilet....although one time my "watcher" actually fell asleep and that was almost comical. So then when you're medical stable you get moved to the Psych Ward, still on Suicide Watch, which means your not allowed to be in a room with the door closed and a nurse or attendant comes and checks on you every freaking 15 minutes....

Have you figured out that trying to kill yourself is not the answer to your problems? The thing that people rarely talk about is that it most often does not work and you just wind up worse off then you were before you did the stupid thing that put you in a worse place! You know why Suicide most often doesn't work....because subconsciously people most often do not really want to kill themselves, they want to make people wake up and pay attention to them, they want people to notice that they are depressed and sad and scared and lonely and hurting and don't know how to handle it all or make it better.....so may skip the whole suicide thing and just reach out for help. If you don't have a Therapist or a Psychiatrist its probably time to get one. Because you can be treated for this, you can get better with Therapy and medication, life can get better...

I've got 5 Suicide attempts to my credit, 5 stupid things that did nothing but put me in a worse place than where I was before. I've got 28 years of BiPolar Depression, most of it stable but some of it not....

Take care and reach out in the real world for help,
Kat

Plz don't talk like that. I felt the same when I get depression I've lost so many people I thought my boyfriend was cheating on me when he wasn't so I lost him and also same of my family member's i feel like I want to kill myself everyday but I've got to much to lose now I have a perfert family plz don't put yourself down show the depression that your better than them

Blessings to you. Depression is difficult to go through. I remember being there once after my divorce. The only thing that kept me from ending my life, at the time, was my children. I love them so much. I didn't want to leave them. You are worthy of living. God put you on this planet for a reason. Have you asked Him what he has planned for you? I'm pretty sure it's not suicide. God loves you so much. What if you asked him to show you how much he loves you? What if you asked him to help you get through depression? Would you be willing to ask him for help by saying, "God help me."

Are there any churches in your neighborhood that you can reach out to for support? Do you know someone who goes to a church that you can go with? You are not alone! God is with you.

I'm praying for you.