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Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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brokenwings26 05/15/2017

Things have been going horribly recently. From one hand I graduated from university and got extremely depressed for not finding a job till now , on the other hand my family are torturing me!!

Well they are good parents and has taken care of me but they are extremely religious and controlling!!

I am a feminist girl in a retarded Extremely conservative society, I am 23 years old but unable to go out unless my parents saw its a good reason and most of the time they don't , I want to study and volunteer abroad but they believe it's a taboo in their religion so they won't allow me to travel unless I got married and the husband allowed me to!!and if i did alone I might be killed or disowned !!

I am forced to cover my hair, to pray , to pretend like I am religious, to stay at home

I tried to protest , to get angry , to cry, to plead but all they are doing is screaming at me, locking me inside the house, taking my phone, preventing me from the internet and now they are threatening to do more!!! At times they got extremely hysterical and angry so they ended up in the hospital and my siblings were blaming me.

All the time critise get my ideals, all the time wanting me to just get married to any guy they bring, and in my society moving out is not considered normal unless one gets married or else would face harsh harrasment and judgment, especially a woman.

Right now I don't see any hope , I am seriously considering killing myself , I don't see any hope with this life they planned for me and all the things that I thought might bring me joy seems so far away . I just don't want to wake up again to such hell!

Renesroom112 05/15/2017

You just got a job congratulations! Save your money and find a place or a roommate to live with far away! I would not even consider telling them where you live or they will cause drama.

I grew up in a religious family. Till this day I am trying to undo all the programming they put me through. I regret wasting part of my life. Yes there is a higher being but this you must recognize and experience by yourself and NOT FORCED by any means to adapt to their beliefs.

Unfortunately if they are violent there is no LOVE in what they preach. Live your life and move on.

sharaninmd 05/15/2017

Sorry you are going through so much pain and loneliness. Does your religion allow you to go to doctors? From what you have stated, you seem to have symptoms of depression. I would recommend that you see a psychiatrist who can properly diagnose you. Let the doctor know about your thoughts of suicide. The doctor may recommend mediation and/or talk therapy or counseling.

Renesroom112 05/15/2017

What religion do your parents belong to. Unfortunately some are not religions but CULTS!!!

sharaninmd 05/15/2017

I wanted to add that now that you have graduated and found a job, congratulations for both, you might try to find a roommate to rent an apartment with. You don't deserve to live the way you have had to live. You are old enough to make your own life decisions. I wish the best for you.

brokenwings26 05/16/2017

Oh it seems I was extremely impulsive that I made a mistake, no I didn't find a job yet , I am doing an internship and it's not for hiring , just a paid internship so I am doing very bad financially . Which is depresseing to me as well

bridgie101 05/16/2017

If you're in India, bite the bullet. Bad things happen to girls in India who buck the system. Very bad. Ditto middle east. In those countries you shut your mouth and keep your head down. If you can get out of there, well and good. But don't be rebellious or you just get abuse. Or drowned in the family swimming pool. Sew those lips shut. Bend that head. Plot to escape all you like, but don't show it. don't give the game away.

It would have helped if you'd said what country you are in.

brokenwings26 05/16/2017

I want to keep the country name private but yeah the society is very conservative and literally there's no women or even men who live by themselves outside the family house. People remain with parents until marriage otherwise society judge them and family disown them and if it's a girl most likely she will be killed or if not then socially rejected and treated as a prostitute .
But it's not fair, people should be able to live as they wish and especially women . My parents are good with me when I listen to their orders but if I don't and was rebilous I lI've in hell. All the time I get critism and unable to be myself on simplst tasks, going out as I want, joining social groups, traveling, what I wear. Lots of times I was threatened to be killed if I ran away on my own

Fly304 05/16/2017

This may be the wrong advice, but this oppressive enviornment doest sound like it will get better, so i would advise getting out of there by any means neccessary. It may be worth the risk, staying could ruin your life. Do you know anyone you can trust that might help?

brokenwings26 05/16/2017

Will it work to run abroad? Problem right now I'm totally broke and jobless

Fly304 05/16/2017

Im not sure where youre from..im guessing outside the u.s.. im sorry to say im not really sure how to help...my thouht was if you knew someone who could help, had resources, or connections to get you away from there. I saw another thing you posted and you need professional help as soon as possible. Antidepressants can be scary at first but if you ease into a medication, you may find good relief. Side effects vary with dosage and can wear off with time. You may not need these meds long term either. Its totally your choice to try them. If you can seek help they will most likely tell you to start therapy....which can be very helpful. It can be a big relief!!
Like i said though, im not sure where you are so i dont know what kind of resources you have there.
Before i had insurance i went to a clinic that accepted a sliding scale fee, meaning they base your fee on the income of yourself or whoever supports you. I saw a therapist and a psychiatrist there. I also signed up for a program that aided me on the medication.
Sometimes there are people who can prescribe medications who arent psychiatrists, like psych nurses. They do the same thing.
It is hard to change others opinions, especially when they are not educated enough, like about mental illness. If there is any possible way to get material to them that might help.

bridgie101 05/17/2017

brokenwings you were not born into mediaeval china, you were not born into cave man days. you were not born into africa, you were not born into greenland. You are not living on a rubbish dump in taiwan sniffing burned plastics all day. You are not thrown into the streets at the age of twelve with a fistula from giving birth to a stillborn at 11. You were not born into French Royalty in the 1400s, you were not born into English peasantry in the 900s. You have flea killers, and dental care, and antibiotics.

You were born where you were born, when you were born. There was never any other chance of you existing, because you are the result of one specific sperm, and one specific egg.

This is the life you got. This is the straw you drew. There was never, ever, any other alternative world for you.

So make your peace with the world you've got, or always be miserable. Because you can't change the world you got. and you got pretty lucky. You have access to a computer, you can read and write, and your parents are good to you when you are obedient. You're not an untouchable, you don't spend all day sweeping up human faeces.

You were born into a context and that context was the only context you could ever be born into. Make your peace with it.

mlm52 05/17/2017

Wow, you can't make peace with something that isn't peaceful. I hope you can find support with friends or others to help you. I am sure there is somewhere you can go to be safe. Your an adult, get a job, save money, and than make changes for you.

Ghostdancer 05/17/2017

Hmm since your problem is the enforced religious code I would try to reach out to another religion for assistance, change of faith even if being a missionary is it. Yeah keeping that search on the down low would be fortuitous for health and wellbeing. Beyond that advice all I can offer is another human beings wish for peace in your life.

Heidiclark 05/17/2017

Yeah, it's easy to say just live with it when you're not the one who has to live with it. I don't think you should give up and give in. I don't know what you should do exactly but I hope one day you can figure something out.

fibrowarrior 05/17/2017

So excited you've gotten a job, the beginning of a new beginning.... it doesn't matter who is abusing us for any reason- religion, or any other matter- this isn't the life God intended you to live. Jeremiah 29:11 says He has a plan and purpose for you and one that gives you a hope and a future not one that harms. religion is what separates so many, we weren't called to religion but relationship- I pray that God gives you wisdom and guidance of His plan for you and where you need to go from here... praying for your parents as well...

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