Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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JohnnyFC 07/21/2013

Ive socially isolated myself from family and friends. I've spent the last 5 Christmases and the last 5 birthdays alone. I have no interest in meeting anyone. I do have a gym membership that i use every day and not one person has attempted to talk to me. On the other hand ive made no attempts to talking to any one. I'm self employed and the sole owner operator so no social contact here. I do have customers and im surprised they have remained loyal to my services in spite of me not even trying to go the extra mile. In the past when i have met someone i quickly tire of them and phase them out. I'll be glad when my life is over. On my tombstone i want it to read "Yay Finally" lol. I probably wont have a tombstone, ill just become to be a disposal issue with the state. Ive tried therapy, medications, alcohol, no alcohol, prescription drugs, street drugs, meditation, and more, just to get some relief from the dark days and nights of depression. Ive heard it all - get a hobby, go to a movie, blah,blah, blah. It will not end. Starting tomorrow im gonna give it one last try. Ill be more positive, ill give myself 30 days.

deleted_user 07/21/2013

A lot of entrepreneurs are bipolar. I am one of them and spent 25 years of my life being depressed and trying different anti-depressants. I was recently diagnosed as bipolar type II. When you are bipolar you need a mood stabilizer or life sucks. I don't know if you are bipolar but you can take the HCL-32 questionnaire to see if you have the manic or hypomanic symptoms. I also gave myself a deadline for life but mine was 3 years and then when it came I extended it. I am doing great now. Have a great wife and kids so hang in there. Things will turn around.

angel1313 07/22/2013

THAT'S THE FIRST START U WROTE TO BE MORE POSITIVE..JUST TAKE BABY STEPS..
(((GENTLE HUGS)))..

amelah 07/22/2013

What is the HCL-32 Questionnaire, hoopheaven? I've been diagnosed over the years with depression (dysthymia, mood-reactive) with reassurances that I am not bipolar, as well as generalized anxiety disorder. But I have the same experience as Johnny FC. Isolated to the point of non-existance. I have a few good friends, who live hundreds of miles away. My social life is reduced to the telephone. Not employed, which makes this life even more pathetic. I'm not a big advocate of medications as I am chemically sensitive and experience the great joy of the unfortunate side effects. And cannot afford to give the shrinks any more money -- they've drained what I have and I'm no further along. I feel incredibly stuck and, like Johnny, have been told to join groups, hobbies, yada yada. I now volunteer at an animal shelter, where the staff are not interested in being my friend as they are half my age and have their own circle of [younger] friends. So what is the point, exactly? (I won't give ultimatums of # of days -- as I won't off myself -- I'm too chicken shit. But I might go back to smoking, which was something hard fought and hard won these past 3 years.)

Sorry to hear you are hurting so much, Johnny. I have no advice to give you. Just want you to know you're not alone in your pain.

((Hugs))

WallyBear 07/22/2013

Do You Have Any Pets????

The Love And Companionship Of An Animal Is Wonderful On So Many Levels.

Please Don't Give Up.

(((((HUGS))))

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