I am NOT suicidal, thankfully. I am just distressed with social anxiety. My family treats me like garbage, although I am the only one not on drugs. I have not worked in 7 years. I get upset and cry daily on some jobs I had in the past. I isolate myself, had only 1 friend for many years until I was ghosted. It's so hard for me to trust anyone. I have no vehicle to get to a job to even try again. My father coddles my brother and sister who is aware are both drug addicts. He drives them to get their drugs, but won't drive me to a job so I can at least try to get on my feet. I feel unsupported and hopeless. I been sick for last 2 years, gastritis issues, no relief. I been to counseling since a teenager, on numerous antidepressants and nothing works. I feel counselor just says I'm sorry a lot but doesn't give me any hope or ideas to help me to have a life. She just listens. I tried and failed college 3x☹️. I don't have a computer to even practice typing, which I also failed. Social anxiety makes it hard for me to be around people. Everything I say seems to be wrong with my family. My father acts like he hates me, but don't know what lies my drug addict siblings tell him. He always believed their lies. When I tell the truth he doesn't listen. I feel so paralyzed in my life. I am up for any advice. Thanks!!!✌️