I feel like a tiny brown, wet baby bird, alone, and standing against a huge lime green wall, trapped and insignificant

I'm sorry you're feeling that way. & Me too.

I have parents who are ill also and its hard. My mom has had a very good life, overall good health but she seems to have a very hard time dealing with the kind of problems you'd expect with advanced age.

Dealing with aged parents is a huge challenge, so be gentle with yourself, my dad looked after my mum then had the nerve to die, so I'm having to act as carer - it's frankly horrendous at times, but we have our lives to live as well.

It is ok to be emotionally empty. It's like being a tin can with a hole in the bottom. Think about the contents of the can as our abilities to love, support and help others. If there is a hole in the bottom of the can - then at some point you will become empty. You will have nothing more to give.

This is perfectly ok. You just need time for yourself to allow those contents to refill

Janus

Thank you all for the encouragement, and I totally agree Janus, I haven’t had any time to myself, and I work as a counselor with people who have worse issues than my own, I really need that alone time

You are not alone, it is tough times and normal to feel down in these trying times. Definitely don't watch the news, all they do is focus on negative and none of it is helpful, just depressing statistics we can't trust. Get outside when you can, go for casual strolls in your neighborhood, or around a lake or pretty neighborhood nearby. Don't let fear rule you or stop you from living. Be smart, but live life too. Get in touch with old friends, call or video chat with them, maybe do a book club together via messenger or something. Make sure it's an encouraging book or funny one. Watch funny videos, humor heals. Do something for someone else, helping others gets our minds off our own problems and gives us purpose beyond just our self. Hang in there, this too shall pass. <3 also, magnesium and ginseng are great in stress times to calm the mind body and soul and get rid of sticky negative thoughts or emotions. <3

Sorry to hear of the challenges that your parents are having and the struggle that you are feeling. Having aging parents is very difficult. I am glad to hear that your Dad is improving some, though I am sure that your mom appreciates the extra support of hospice.  Have you or your mom considered the local agency on aging? They often have counselors and other resources that may be helpful.
I understand the weight of your work and your personal life are pretty heavy right now. Make sure you give yourself time and space to grieve and for self care.

You have to talk to your family about your feelings. I did and my family shunned me for a while. It showed that what i thought about them was true. As you get older things will get worse. You have to be prepared for that, and try and live life well, and seek spirituality.