I'm sorry, what's going on?

Hey dont be so hard on yourself..so what heppened?

Well here is a hugh for it

((HUG))

I am just soooooo tired of never pleasing anyone or doing everything wrong I just want to find a way to die.

Perhaps recognizing that if you did not please them, then they have not pleased you?

Is there anybody in particular who seems to be telling you this?

I just always feel like I mess everything up all the time and feel lik I'm a puppet on everyone's finger they feel the need to control me and how I live

I have spent my whole life trying to be perfect and trying to make everyone happy. Guess what? I failed. These past few weeks I am only trying to make one person happy....me. It's just to exhausting trying to keep up with everyone elses standards. I know it may seem selfish but you need to focus on yourself and stop worrying about others. You will become a better person and be liked better because of it. Please hang in there ok?

Does it really ever get better cause I'm really starting to think not

It will get better...and then you will fall again. And then you get better. It's a bad cycle. But there will be good times. I love those times. And when I start sliding down...I try to remember that I will see those times again. It keeps me going.

read my story , it might help :)

http://www.dailystrength.org/c/Teen_Anxiety/forum/14328140-teen-anxiety-story-help-read

I have a quote on my desk that says "The quickest way to failure is trying to please everyone". It is true. I have tried for years to do that till my husband said to me one day "the only person that can make you happy is you' it is how you teach yourself to react to others that pulls you down. He knows depression is a real factor in my life, but I have learned that other want to manipulate me and control me by their attitudes and I have slowly learned to say that is their problem. I liken it to their opinions of the way we laid the tile, somewhat crooked. If they say anything, I simply tell them they are welcome to redo it. No one has commented on it again and no one has fixed it. :) shuts them right up. even my perfectionist brother in law who can't tolerate a crooked line.

How in the he'll do I force myself to keep going when I'm so sick of life??I'm so tired.

Keep putting one foot in front of the other-go on automatic, take a mental leave of absence..that is what I do until I can be part of my own life again...it is a vicious cycle...unfortunately I never see it coming until I am smack in the middle of it.