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I just want to give up...

BrooklynnMB
BrooklynnMB
I've never felt this way before. I mean, I've thought about suicide before during my other episodes of depression but would never do it. Right now, I don't even have the energy to think about suicide. I just want to give up. I've been feeling depressed for almost two years now. I'm a good person who does good things for others and I'm sick of suffering. I just want it to be over.

But don't worry, I won't commit suicide, I just won't. For one thing I don't have the energy like I said. And I couldn't do that to family. And I know I will feel better someday. But I don't even want to live anymore. I don't think I'll ever regret leaving my ex fiance two years ago. And he won't take me back. We've tried and it didn't work, he doesn't feel the same way. I've been through depression before, but then it was all chemical. This is situational and it's a situation I can't solve. It's over. I hate my life and I want it to be over. I left my ex and I'll never forgive myself for that. Now I'm alone and miserable when I had a great guy who loved me but doesn't anymore. I left him for selfish reasons. He would've taken me back for about 5 months after I left him but then he moved on. Right about the time I started to regret leaving him. I really screwed up. I have ruined my life. I want to give up.
gramybear
gramybear
So often when we feel the way that you are, we just want someone to listen, and most of all, to understand. Do you have anyone aside from us that you can talk to that will truly listen and understand what you are going through? Do you know what is bringing on the depression? There are times when we don't even know where it comes from and that can be frustrating, causing the feeling of wanting to just give up. But know you are not alone, we are here for you and will support and help you the best that we can. You are important honey. Don't EVER forget that. Hugs GB
dliq
dliq
Tears just came streaming down my face reading your post. I have all the same feelings and did the same. Although I have 2 children and it has been 8 yrs. He moved on with soneone else and now they spend family time together and I am alone on those wknds he has them. Every time he picks them up on those wknds I feel so empty. I have no other family and so sad cause I don't have the same friends cause I am now divorced and they all are still married surrounded by family. so nmany losses. I fight this depressed feeling every day and the only thing keeping me alive are my kids. I appreciate everything and love my kids so much. It is a struggle I hide every day with them. I so understand your feelings. You are not alone. Try and do something nice for yourself. My heart goes out to you. Take care
Misssy2
Misssy2
Hi:
my suggestion is to communicate via hugs and PM with dilq....

Seems she was really touched by your story...as I was..but I have never been thru it.

What I have been thru is.....leaving relationships...and feeling empty and alone...And I will tell you that every relationship that ended was meant to end for me to meet the next "better" phase of my life.

Its only been a short time since your breakup...you may look back on this in a year...and be like....WOW....I did the best thing ever.

Your grieving...I wish you strength and happiness....soon.
brokenpieces1990
brokenpieces1990
Oh honey I am so sorry! I know that feeling of breaking up with an ex and deeply regretting it. I'm going through it too. I am glad to hear that you are set on not taking your life. I know everything is really screwy right now and you miss your ex- trust me, I'm there right now. But it will get better. I know this is like the stupidest thing in the world to say, but times does heal the wounds. It will leave scars, for sure, but time will do some mending, I promise you. For now, talk to us here and try to relieve yourself of some of these bottled up emotions!
shihonage
shihonage
Giving up is good. Your momentum is about to stop. From there, you will feel a new direction emerge in your life.
justmauvy
justmauvy
Sometimes when things start to go wrong in our lives or we start to feel bad, we regret things that we've done in our past. Things that were really good moves.
I left my husband of 15 years because he didn't love me, he wanted a caretaker only and I couldn't handle it anymore. I divorced him and started over in a state 600 miles away with no friends or family close by. I had a lot of hard times over the next 4 years and there were times that I doubted whether I made the right decision. My faith was sorely tested.
What I'm trying to say BrooklynnMB is that in all likelihood you didn't screw up, you just think you did right now because you are feeling depressed. Don't be so hard on yourself. The Good Lord gave you intuition for a reason and you used it at the time. Please give yourself some credit and know that we are here for you if you need someone to talk to. My prayers are with you. Let me know how you are doing, I care.
gramybear
gramybear
I wanted to check in to see how you are doing today? I hope better. Please don't ever hesitate to ask for support. You deserve it. Hugs GB
eshaw
eshaw
I hope you're feeling better today! I know the feeling of regret, remorse, wishing I'd made different choices. My ex is getting married in August, and every day I wish I could take back my decision of ending things. But I see my ex happy and it makes me feel a little at peace. But tugs at the heart still. I think time eventually heals the heart, at least I'm hoping. It has been several years for me and I still feel the pain. But I know it will get better. What helps me is to be grateful for the moments I had. When I was loved, when I was something to somebody. I'd go through this all again to have those moments I'd never regret. Sending you love and hope that your heart will feel at peace and that you'll know one day you will feel love again.
whatswrong19
whatswrong19
Hey Brooklyn, I see this was posted a few days ago, it's really gotten slow on here, but I hope this day finds you feeling better about things. Many years ago I ended a relationship I didn't want to end, but it was falling apart anyway, he met someone else and was seeing them on the side, and just didn't have the balls to beak up me and do it the right way. I broke up with him and was so depressed and heartbroken because I was still in love with him, I still wanted him to love me back, but he didn't, turns out he was seeing an ex-best friend of mine, when I say ex-bestfreind, she became that when I learned it was her he was seeing and she knew we were together and that I was happy and she took him away from me anyway. 8 years later she left him for drugs and other women. FUNNY HUH? and he's still an asshole today.