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I don't know what my problem is. I had so much to do today and ended up coming home and falling asleep. I had really wanted to go hiking and clean my bathroom, and then maybe do something this evening, but for some reason got off on a tangent and was stuck in a loop of negative and obsessive thoughts all day. I don't know what the heck my problem is. I started obsessing about some missing text messages and going into a loop of crazy thoughts. I then got frustrated with customer service because I was trying to figure out how to retrieve these lost texts. The customer service rep started calling me back every fifteen minutes to see if I got it resolved. I was very frustrated with this and told her on the sixth call to stop it.
This drained me so I lay down and took a nap. This did help me to feel better. Then, I forced myself to eat. I have not been to the grocery store in a week and there is almost zero food in the house. I just don't understand why I am starting to spiral or am getting into an episode of depression. I'm having a very hard time.
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I've been feeling like I don't matter my wife the other day instead of telling me she was having a pain day when I went to have sex with her she tell me afterwards that she having pain day due to her fribromyalgia and making feel like shit afterward saying she has a list of things from past 9 years of thing for me to do and is always adding more and more to this list and talk...
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My sister-in-law called yesterday. She had some bad news about her job and wanted to let me know that they are coming for a visit at the end of October. Then she went on and on and on about her job! She only calls about 3 times a year so I didn't want to cut her off but I didn't have an hour and forty-five minutes to spare. I barely got a word in edgewise. Why don't people realize when...
Started taking Red Yeast Rice for really high cholesterol and the pharmacist warned me that it can cause rhabdo, and that if you've had it in the past, there is a likelihood that you can get it again. I get severe cramping in my legs and hands and abs in the middle of the night and it keeps me up during the night. The other cause could be a steep drop in calcium after having my thyroid surgery. The pain is very intense. My calcium was normal the last time they checked, but labs and bloodwork status changes. I do feel better when I take calcium supplements. But, I also have to keep in mind that severe muscle pain and weakness can come from rhabdo as well, so I've paused on taking the Red Yeast Rice for a bit.
Also, I might need to look at changing this seroquel as it can cause high cholesterol and other side effects. I'm open to making a change, but not while I'm working and under stress. That is too much change and instability. I might do that when I am on vacation from work. I feel like every time I make a medication change, it throws everything off, so I want to be relatively stable before I do that. I don't want to stop a med that helps me sleep and control anxiety when I'm under a high amount of stress. Last time I decided to 'just go off of medication,' it was a disaster. I'm going to wait until the timing is better-even if there are some side effects.
You are right-we are conditioned to have to be doing something all of the time. Truth is, there is so much to be done and it's a lot while working, but it does seem this culture (United States) is anti-rest and vacation.
Sorry for the huge letter, but thanks for the encouragement.
It's great that you are on top of your health and medications!
I replied to your other post, and I was just wondering if you would want to see your psychiatrist about the Seroquel, since your cardiologist suggested maybe going off it (??). (Not sure if that is what the cardiologist said exactly). But, Seroquel can definitely cause sleepiness.
Just seeing the psychiatrist now, doesn't mean you have to stop any medications right now. But you could find out how to decrease it (titrate) slowly, if that is what they recommend. And then you would know ahead of time how you will do this (even if it's not until summer starts).
I hope you would consider going to an appointment. Seroquel has some other big side effects (drowsiness, tiredness, weight gain, dizziness, all kinds of joint pain) and so if you find out what the "plan" is for going off it, or maybe switching to a different drug.... at least you will know what is coming up and what the plan is.
I think stopping it completely on your own, without a doctor's supervision, is not good, as the side effects can be too much. I know what you mean, there are anxiety medications I take now, that I wish I could just Stop, and right now! But, I check with my psychiatrist first, to see how to wean off of it slowly.
You're doing a great job! Keep it up.