We do care on here, please don't do it. Take a step back and breathe. Things will get better cause when you are on bottom there is no way but up.

I am new and just came across your post. I know how you feel. Please though, take a step back and look at the positive things in your life. Your family, your friends.

I just recently lost a friend to suicide and I can tell you that the domino effect that is causes is real and very heartbreaking for everyone.

Please, if you need to talk, reach out to someone. I would be more than happy to lend an ear and help you.

I'm still here. I'm really sorry to have bothered anyone. I know what it's like to lose someone to suicide..it's hard. But I have no other way out of this pain. It's consuming me..

There are plenty of other ways out of the pain you're in. Most people on this forum have been there, done that (as far as feeling suicidal) and are still around to tell the tale. Living proof that killing yourself isn't the only option.
What alternatives have you looked in to so far? Medication? (can take a whole lot of playing around with meds to get the one(s) that are going to work for you personally). Therapy? Lifestyle changes? You have to take a personal inventory of what you've done to help your depression and explore all avenues before you decide to do something so drastic to solve it. There is help out there. If you are feeling that an attempt at suicide is imminent, I would call a crisis help line in your area. No one deserves to feel that their life is worthless enough to just end it.
HUGS
Jen

Of course we care ... much more than you would think. I have seen your other post. We could sure help you MORE if we knew more about you. Right now, what I know is you are a 16 yo female in Australia, with some pretty big problems.

Keep it anonymous but we need to know things like diagnoses/treatments, something about your family life, do you go to school?, what is it you would like to work on the MOST ...

It would be best to put this info in your PROFILE because discussion threads get lost in the shuffle and you don't want to have to explain it all each time you post. DS is a support site .. and we stand by to offer support. Help us help you.

Do not harm yourself. Love yourself .. it is the gateway to happiness. Very simple .... actually.

Hi all! Thank you so so much for responding to me.
Okay so just some info about me..I've been moving around most of my life (I've lived in Wales, India, Hungary and Australia). I see my psych 2-4 times a week (we've tried mainly CBT but other types of therapy as well) and I've been on different medications, currently I'm on lexapro but most recently I was on Prozac. I was diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety as well as OCD..I've tried many, many things to change how I'm feeling but nothing has helped, and every day it gets worse. So, yeah, this is the hell that I call my life.

Ella

Ella you aren't crazy or aren't going crazy. You're just in a state of panic and can't think rationally! We all know how that feels. It is draining as fuck! But you have to fight through this! Don't worry about these conditions you have those are just labels! You are just dealing with life! Your thoughts are scaring the shit out of you and that's normal! I'm telling you, YOU will get better!!! I felt the same way you did and I'm feeling better! You will get better! But you must know that acting on impulse is the opposite of what you must do! Take a deep breath right now in your room. And don't do anything your mind is telling you but breath. Just breathe. Do you hear me! You will be stronger and will be happier. Is anybody home with you? Don't be afraid to tell your parents what you're feeling and going through or any adult. They will help you. You have to keep fighting. You are strong enough! Life wouldn't put you through anything you couldn't handle! Talk to us and tell us how you're feeling right now?!

goodness, I can't thank you all enough for being here when I had no one else..thank you. it's so, so hard to live like this. I hold on, but every day I get more exhausted. nothing's helping, and I don't know what to do now..

You live.

I wish it was that easy :) ...

You need to try a new therapist. Keep trying different approaches. Don't just think you're doomed because one thing doesn't work. Keep trying. Do not give up! It sounds easier said than done but if it were easier done than you wouldn't feel what you're feeling. Life is throwing these challenges at you and it's trying to see if you know your strength. Because you are strong. Grab this shit called Life by the horns. Let em know who's in charge! You're so young and what you're feeling is normal. I know you hear this a lot and it seems so hard and seems like it doesn't make sense but it will. And you'll be happy and free from all these negative thoughts once you practice and realize it's you whos in control. Question, knowing what you know and feeling what you feel, what would you tell another 16 year old who's feeling suicidal? Would you help them? Would you try and talk them out of it? If so, what would you say? Be honest! Reply back to me when you see this! Those questions are your assignment for me.

That is a hell of a lot of experience for a 16 yo. Those are some serious and debilitating conditions and I am no expert on either of them. I have a few of them myself .. but have overcome mine.

I just Googled "Is ocd treatable?". Recommend you do the same though it sounds like you and your treatment for it is 'about right'. That, combined with the other diagnoses makes for a pretty big problem .... which calls for 'big guns' to beat. Your reply indicates some 'treatment resistance', but personally, I think plenty of research and willingness to recover will prevail. Plenty of good PROFESSIONAL attention for sure. One thing in your favor ... you are young and your mind and body will do some more maturation ..... which ... combined with CONTINUED treatment may make a HUGE difference. Seriously ... an adolescent mind is vastly different from an adult mind .. .though you are VERY 'advanced' it seems ... still, changes await.

I/we REALLY do not want you to harm yourself ... we want you to WIN, .. and I think you can. Work hard at it, and learn all you can about it, and you can probably win over ... at least some or a lot of it. Good luck. I will be thinking of you.

Please don't die, everyone commented for a reason. Pleased stay. I know you can find your light, just don't give up.

Suicide is never the answer. Write you emotions out instead. Or focus on a positive hobby you really love doing, like exercising or painting. You are irreplaceable. Jesus loves you. Believe me, knowing that can overcome anything you are facing. Any wrong you have done any or wrong against you can be forgiven. As the scapegoat in my family, I needed His love to cling to. When my family gave up on me, Jesus never did. Even though you feel like giving up on yourself, Jesus never will.

There's got to be something to live for??