Have you thought that maybe you are overworked? You seem to be pretty busy. Some people get very stressed when they stay this busy. I tend to get depressed when Im not doing anything.

loads of insecurities, had them all my life, was born mildly disabled and felt depressed and altra sensitive, to top it off my dad died when i was 8 and my mum kept having break downs its like i lost both parents and my brothers always hated me, now i manage ppl for a living and i play football for quite a good team, i just feel awlful in myself and cant get rid of it. im not really a christian sort of lost my faith!

As tough as this sounds, when you are a Christian, its easy to get off track. When we are at the very bottom, of course its hard to believe that God does exist. But, I have to have faith. If not, life really isn't worth living. We all have our insecurities but you also need to remember that because you have dealt with these issues, you are probably a lot stronger than a lot of people on this board. Your mom loves you and is probably feeling as you do and thats why it is hard for her to cope. Have you been there for her, even if she doesn't seem to be there for you? Family is important, no matter how close or far they are because in the end, they are really all you have. I can't say that I understand about your Dad. I'm sorry to hear this but you know he is watching out for you every day whether you believe it or not. Im glad you still have some hobbies at this point, that is sometimes what keeps us going during our low times. Keep playing ball and I am sure you have built some friendship through the team. You should watch the movie Facing the Giants. It will really inspire you. It involves a coach of a football team and will give you your faith back. You need your faith. I can't stress how important that is. When Im feeling my lowest, I can say that the Bible is the first book I grab and I search it through and through for answers and I always come out of my darkest depression. Much luck to you.

Thanks alot, i hate feeling sorry for myself, i started reading the bible yesterday ironically after years, accountant at work sort of roped me into it, its hard to have faith sometimes somethings in the bible i disagree with and will never agree with but i guess it is better then having no faith!

The Bible is hard to read. If you are like me, half of it I dont understand. I really like Psalms when I am down. Its a cheerful book and seems to always hit the nail on the head. Glad you got "roped" into it. Also, you can read about serving others. You are doing great in this area.

"Fear not, for I am with You."

One more thing, my brother became "disabled" with a disease called Hidradentitus Suppurativa" or something like that. I hated to see him go through this. It lasted about 4 years and to this day I consider him my hero for being so strong. Do not be ashamed of a disability. It seems you are into sports and can do what almost anyone can do. Be proud of that.

will do, hope i feel better tommorrow!

I have been feeling this way for the last 6 months or so and I don't understand why?? I have a great life. Not to active but I have bad health issues so I do what I can but I am so down in the dumps and I have no enery and I can't even take my daughter to the store to get her a pair of pants. It kils my body.
God I wish someone in this world would help me. If someone said "if you eat chciken crap you'll feel better I would" now that's scary!!! Does anyone out there have any idea what to do please anyone???

If I may ask...is there something in life you really want to do? Somewhere you want to go? Maybe you could think about working toward that goal.

I done a skydive last year, thats one thing i always wanted to do, ended up breaking my leg as i landed, but i felt so proud of myself for doing it, i want to climb everest one day not to the sumit but go to the base camp which is quite high up, not gonna do it this year but will do next year as my ankle is still healing!