Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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MorningSadness00 09/15/2008

Okay,
well.
Lately i just started going back to school (high school), and its a new school (because i moved) so i dont really know anyone and they dont know me.
And when i get to school i become so depressed because everyone has their little groups and Cliques, and im to afraid to talk to people, because im afraid that they will find out that im depressed or that i have an anxiety disorder, im not really sure what to think anymore. I dont want to go to school for the rest of the year not having any friends, but i dont want to go up to people and try talking to them and be rejected as a friend ( because this has happened to me in the past). I dont know anymore. Im sick of going into the bathroom stall crying just because i have no friends, even though i have started going to this school about 5 days ago. I guess one cant make friends this fast. But i just want to be able to have someone to talk to when im in lunch break or something. All they do is stare at me, (probably because i am the "new girl".)
I dont want people to know that im 19 also, because most people in high school arent 18 years old.
and i dont want to give up this fast because this is my last chance to graduate and by all my means i want to. But i feel that i cant go on like this alone. I need moral support. =[

deleted_user 09/15/2008

You sound like me when I was 15-16. I hated it. But it won't always feel like that.

Concentrate on your subjects and give yourself the best start in life. Because friends from school rarely stay with us for life.

I know that's not much help when you don't want to feel alone, but you sound nice enough for friends to just come along naturally.

deleted_user 09/15/2008

AWWW hon...I know that people can be cruel....I am here for you if you need to chat ...please feel free to lean on me!!! I will do what I can to help anyone!!!

I AM HERE FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Much love & God bless!!!
Tere

MorningSadness00 09/15/2008

I want to focus on my subjects, but its so hard, because on top of not having any friends, i cant think. I feel like everything is just a big blur, and its frustrating when you just space out in class when the teacher is talking. I cant think about anything but, my anxiety especially when im in class. I dont want to but it just happens.
I am a nice person, i try and compliment people as much as possible by telling them how nice they look, but nothing seems to come out of it. I guess i dont talk long enough for something to come out of it, but i just feel like i dont know how to talk to people anymore, because ive been so locked up in my small little room, for 3 months. (not literally, its just because i chose to isolate myself).

deleted_user 09/15/2008

Hi, You are not alone. I finished highschool when I was a bit older also (20). I knew people in highschool in their forties, fifties. You don't have much of an age difference to worry about. Other than you are probably more mature than the other people there.
I know it feels bad, but you will make friends! Starting here! You have alot of courage to reach out. You will always find someone....It will be okay, Bryanne

deleted_user 09/15/2008

I am a High school teacher (music), and if you were my student I would tell you to join something like Drama or Chorus after school. Now, I know you have anxiety issues, but joining those things doesn't mean you have to get on stage. There are TONS of things that need to be done behind the scenes, and the teachers are ALWAYS looking for 'non-divas' to do those very necessary jobs. The kids in drama and music are always more accepting of others (IMO) They are used to people just being themselves. I know it's hard to join stuff when you're anxious but just TRY it.

deleted_user 09/15/2008

It's HARD being shy. Those that aren't just don't get it. Because it can seem like you don't have interest in other people and it's not true.

I hope you find like-minded friends, but don't lose hope if you can't.

I was a real space cadet at school. I just never concentrated and failed miserably at everything i did.

Testycatlady 09/15/2008

I hear you on being older in high school. I had to drop out temporarily after a sporting accident, and so for my last year in high school when I had to return, I knew no one. Surprisingly, I did find others like me who also were returning to high school that I could relate to, and we did become friends. It did not happen rite away tho. I hope you can find people your age at your school. HUGS!

MorningSadness00 09/15/2008

Thanks everyone!
It makes me feel better that i am not alone.
Actually I was thinking about joining Color Guard(Band) or Band even, because i love music, music is my life, and i could probably find some friends doing those things, but the thing is it costs money and my mom doesn't really have any to give me for those things, i suppose i could ask my aunt. Im sure she'd be happy to help.

deleted_user 09/15/2008

Band is also a great idea. I had tons of fun in band. If your Aunt can help that's great! But if not, sometimes the Band Parents Assoc or the teacher can provide a needs based scholarship for you. Most teachers will not exclude a kid b/c of financial need.

Yay! I loved band...I played piccolo :)

Jormungandr 09/15/2008

I can relate to your situation. I turned 18 early in my senior year while most of my classmates were still 16. Additionally, I lived outside of the school area, taking the bus to get there. So, I mostly saw people only during school, not after it. As Steve said, just concentrate on your studies. It's very unlikely you'll see these people again. I never did. Whenever someone would ask if something interesting was going on at school, I'd reply that I just go there. I don't have friends per se, but most of the people I could trust were outside of school.

deleted_user 09/15/2008

dont over look people...

just my opinion.

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