Mas, half the time, we say we don't fit anywhere because we don't want to fit anywhere. I am definitely one of those people. Growing up, my mom moved a lot and not because we were in the military it was because whatever man she was with, we didn't have the rent, so up we moved, So I didn't bother making friends, plus then my mom got involved with am man that physically abused her for 8 years, so I definitely always had a serious face and never made eye contact just so no one would come near me.. People wouldn't approach me. Later on in life, I was surprise that people did noticed me and they told me that I had a face that said "f*** off and the two or three I did had as friends would say "What her, she;s the bestest friend you can have, you would give her life for you. Right now, I feel just like you. I'm going through a very difficult time in my life and people that I thought were my friends aren't there for me, too busy with their lives or the friends that live close to them. My best from since I was 18, rarely even write and I invited her to my daughters wedding and already gave like 3 excuses. I'm mad at my family because my situation is serious, I even have a daughter that is going through something herself and I am there for her but my situation is a bit worst but her attitude us "mom, Focus, me right, what are you going to do for me?" I tried calling my mom but she's busy helping my brother and his younger kids, other family members, no return text or calls. So I get it. and the person that I'm having the problem with constantly telling me I like to be dramatic, I'm crazy, and his favorite word, bitter. I hate it so much. I even felt talking to my doctor was a waste of time, killing myself, I cut myself once but I only did that because I wanted the guy to hit me. I was so angry of all the misery he was making me feel that I just want to feel pain, But to die, no, dying is not an option. Winning is an option. defeating those thoughts is what's going to make you feel better. The worst is fear. Conquer those fears. College degrees nowaday are not worth much, is what you know. I have had to start from the bottom so many times. so what, it's life. what do you love to do? See if you can find a job doing something similar to that, even if it doesn't make money. One thing I learned, you don't need much to survive in this world, its stupid marketing and the "jones: that make people like us not want to live. We only need one or two good friends, whether they are next to us or a screen away. baby steps Mas, baby steps, nothing was created in one day, not even us....

What is your Degree in and why did you get a Degree in something you didn't want to do?

C0ntrary to what the previous poster said a College Degree is worth quite a lot, if you plan on having a Career and making something of yourself. Is your Degree something you can use in a different or less obvious way? Think about that okay.

If you're not happy in the town that you're in and you don't have any ties there, then you might start job searching in other cities. life can do a complete 180 when you move to a new city and start a new career. maybe move to somewhere where there are lots of fun and interesting things to do.

You don't have to rely on others to make you happy, you can be happy just out enjoying your life, you know?

Think about what you really want to do right now and do it.....this is one of the great things about being young and just starting out, you get to do it wherever you want.

Yeah, a degree doesn't mean you'll get the job you want. At least, you have work - that's something.

>it would be nice if someone would actually sit >down and talk to me.
I think that's unlikely to happen...maybe you can ask to sit down next to another lonely person?

Hang in there, dude! Time passes and things change. It may take a long time but one day you'll be living the kind of life you were meant to live, and all because you never gave up.

I got my degree in Journalism but my college was a joke. They didn't really provide me with anything helpful. I wasted my time being there at a school that wasn't really of my choosing.

are you on meds or in therapy, I ask that first because it sounds like a possible avenue to explore. Work is work my friend, and I'm not trying to be flipent at all about that. We really don't go to work to make friends, it's a job, and we are lucky if we can have at least an amicable working relationship with our co-workers. As far as friends go, they are few and far between really. Good friends that is, we only really have a handful in a lifetime, and the rest come and go, and are really just acquaintances, not really friends. The word 'Friend' is a very general terms these days. So try maybe to get some professional help to sort this all out, and help you to feel better about yourself. You should be proud of the fact you finished your degree, I know it's not what you wanted, but non the less, it's an accomplishment. Therapy helped me stop seeing the world with my suit of armor on,( most of the time), Feeling lonely, but always so afraid of getting hurt, I didn't realize I was always looking for an easy out in relationships.

I'm confused. Do you want to pursue a career in journalism?

If so, regardless of where you received your degree, either get experience by volunteering your services in that field or get additional formal "continuing education".

If not, figure out what you really want to do "when you grow up" and pursue that.

Perhaps once you find the niche in the workplace in which you are happy doing what you do, that attitude of confidence and assuredness will spill over into your personal relationships.

Hey just wanted to let you know I read your post, but the replies you got were so awesome, I don't know that I have anything to add other than good luck and I hope things get better for you

seeking out some spirituality is not a bad idea, like 4nkrgg, do some research, see what feels right to you spiritually and when you grow from that, it makes alot of things that feel really bad to you, lighten up.

meant to say like 4nkrgg said