I feel like shit too. Med and therapy can only help. I have to get massages every week. I found out massage help myself. My doctor cannot do anything about it. Experiment things of what makes you feel better. You only know yourself the best.

Reach out to a counselor at school or therapist to help you. I feel really empty sometimes and want to quit but then I start thinking about positive things and I make sure I display gratitude towards others it's helpful for me to get back my mojo back.

Have you tried to get out of your head and get outside and partake in something physical? You're fourteen, and you have an entire life ahead of you. Teenage years are what they are, full of emotions and feelings we've never experienced. We've all been there, and we all grown up. Stop worrying so much about yourself and how unhappy you are, and start having some fun. Force yourself to get out of your head, and into some fun.

I am sorry for what you are going through. Do you see a therapist or a counselor? If not, that might be helpful. As Lenoire suggested, start enjoying yourself. You are a teenager with so much to look forward to. Try to get involved with one or two groups at school. Stay positive and be strong so you can turn your life around to be what it should be for you. I wish you the best.

Is there something you know of that triggered the depression? Meds have side effects, and I recommend speaking with your doctor about how you're feeling. I used to be on meds that had known side effects of creating suicidal thoughts and depression. Even when I was off the meds, I still had to overcome depression...which was my cause of suicidal thoughts. Honestly, I was just so overwhelmed, there was so much chaos in my life. I didn't get better until I learned how to deal with stress. We're here for you.