Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
How could I be so stupid to think that I had found the perfect man of my dreams? Our first anniversary would have been in a couple of weeks, only to find out he did not feel the same way I did. I sacrificed so much and got nothing but a broken heart in return. I should have known that a long-distance relationship was a terrible mistake from the door but I foolishly accepted his passive-aggressive ways. I am heartbroken and can not look at myself in the mirror. All those long conversations meant nothing to him but a game. No plans just made up nonsense he fed me and I was too naive to believe. All the lies, games, and negative energy at my expense and he walked away like I never meant anything to him. I trusted him and I should not have. I feel so alone with no one to talk to. I give up on love. I gained weight and do not feel attractive at all. Never make promises that you can not keep and stop lying to women pretending they are the only ones when you actually are juggling multiple women. I have prayed for true love for as long as I can remember but all I keep getting are losers. I give up and will die of a broken heart.
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I haven't written in my diary on my computer since May because I thought that my computer was dying. I got away from writing but my computer is hanging in there. I think that I will start writing in it again. It's so therapeutic.
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Years ago, I won a mirrored armoire from my job. It's in my bedroom but I rarely stand in front of it. Yesterday, I had to have a dexascan done so I had to change into a gown. There was a full length mirror in the changing room. I'm aware that I gained 5 to 7 pounds over the last year from cheating on Keto but I didn't know what it looked like. It was a reality check.
Youre not alone, friend. Somedays I think about how I have never been in a half way successful relationship and after so many people say no to you - you really start believing that you are the issue. I have been also praying to God for love but still no look. After breaking yet again I looked back and God and asked why I was being punished and why He hated me. I still have my fears and insecurities but in those next few days God showed me through the help of others that I am very much loved and that HE has never forgot about me but I had forgotten about HIM. I still pray to God that HE helps me find love but this time I try to show love for God more. I pray, I read, and I try to act accordingly and I truly believe that if I can display my love for God that one day he will give me the love I deserve.
Lastly, I implore you to start investing in yourself. When was the last time you did something that made you happy? Or did a hobby, hang out with people that love you, accomplished a short term goal? Maybe start going to the gym be empower yourself again, hang out with some those who love you, and start doing things that ONLY make you happy. Lastly, I would say get a journal to right your thoughts and your progress, and never lose hope in God for He burdens no soul with anything they cannot handle. Stay strong my friend!