How could I be so stupid to think that I had found the perfect man of my dreams? Our first anniversary would have been in a couple of weeks, only to find out he did not feel the same way I did. I sacrificed so much and got nothing but a broken heart in return. I should have known that a long-distance relationship was a terrible mistake from the door but I foolishly accepted his passive-aggressive ways. I am heartbroken and can not look at myself in the mirror. All those long conversations meant nothing to him but a game. No plans just made up nonsense he fed me and I was too naive to believe. All the lies, games, and negative energy at my expense and he walked away like I never meant anything to him. I trusted him and I should not have. I feel so alone with no one to talk to. I give up on love. I gained weight and do not feel attractive at all. Never make promises that you can not keep and stop lying to women pretending they are the only ones when you actually are juggling multiple women. I have prayed for true love for as long as I can remember but all I keep getting are losers. I give up and will die of a broken heart.
I need someone to talk to tonight. i'm not well. i'm suffering physically and mentally. i am being tortured and gas lighted by my family. would someone please caht with me a little bit. i need help
it feels so like irrelevant to write this because i don't really have any importance or meaning so i don't expect any comments but i just realized that i couldn't cry because whenever i cried in front of my family they always told me to just stop and eventually i would literally stop when they told me to stop because i guess i evolved into just believing my feelings are irrelevant even to myself