i cant offer you any words of wisdom my friend as ive never been in that position but i can offer some hugs xxx

Do some exercises and go to the woods can help depression.

Shoot..........

I know what it feels like to be sad and lonely. I found that alcohol just made me worse, but to each his own.

I am sorry to hear you are in so much mental pain. I am here to listen if you want to talk this evening. I need more details.

I had something very like that, a very bad cause of guilt I could not talk about.

My best suggestion would be to let yourself have done it, and provided nobody is suffering right now as a cause of it, eg nobody's locked in the basement or in jail for a crime you committed, then you can let it go.

You can just let it go. It's okay to do so.

Guilt is usually for stuff we've done, not stuff we're doing. If we had guilt for stuff we were actually doing, we wouldn't be doing it. So I'm going to make a leap and say it's a thing you have already done.

Which means it's over. Which means that to drag it from the past into the present can only cause hurt.

You need a counsellor and to tell them the thing you've done so you can offload it. I know when I confess I usually discover the thing I did was not so bad. :)

I love Peter and Heather'so suggestion. Going to the woods to shoot is always fun! But probably not the advise you need right now. I'M 46, when I was about 25, I went through an ordeal, where I raised what I thought was my child for 3 years. Anyway, she left and a paternity test.proved he wasn't mine. I went through the courts and tried to get visitation. After a long court battle, since I wasn't the paternal father. It really screwed me up! Things will work out, but drinking just makes me hang on to all that crap, you will get through this and you have legal rights to your child. If you stay sober, maybe things will eventually work out with your wife. Best of luck my friend! The first one is the one that gets ya! Sly

I would not be drinking to avoid emotions very beginning of alcohol abuse has that same kind of reasoning....Hugs
I am an Alcoholic in recovery 20yrs if you need to talk...

Thanks every one. I know intellectually that drinking is not the solution, but at the same time it totally numbs the pain, it just takes it away. So, I drink because it does make me feel better at least for a little while.

I know I shouldn't drink but if this is the thing that is going to give me peace even for minute . . .

I am so sorry to hear you had a bad night, I hope things are better for you today... i know what with addictions, we have them because they provide temporary relief (speaking as someone who's also struggled with addiction), but the thing is, it's only temporary as you know. And generally, addictions are a detrimental way of filling a void, they don't solve the underlying problem. Again, I hope things are better today and that you can find the inner peace that you need.

DONT DRINK ALCHOHOL.
IT WILL ADD 2 YOUR DEPRESSION.
IT IS A DEPRESSANT.
I BELONG 2 AA.
GBU
DRENA B
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