Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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meandthebeast 07/20/2011

This last bout of horrible depression and being in the bitter depths of hell almost put me over the edge enough to start drinking again... I didnt care.. fuck everyone... who am I hurting?.....I bought the bottle and brought it home.. hid it in my purse............ came in the house and saw my son Dakota sitting there and he had bought me dinner..........................................................................................................................................................I dumped the bottle down the drain..........................................................tooooooooooooooo close for comfort

deleted_user 07/20/2011

Beast! If that wasn't divine intervention, I don't know what is! You may not have seen the wings and halo, but your son was no less an angel that day.

God bless you and your son!

I'm praying for your continued strength.

leeigh 07/20/2011

Really, really proud - such a strong lady x

WallyBear 07/20/2011

Sweetie,

That WAS close, but you didn't drink........ :-) :-) :-)

I Am SO Proud Of You!

You are So Much Stronger Than You Think !

((((((((HUGS)))))))

deleted_user 07/20/2011

I am proud of you. This is a giant step forward that you have taken. God bless you and your family. Peggy

Summerwind81 07/20/2011

Okay, this is definitely the coolest thing I've read all day :D

You are so strong...

HUGE hugs and some giddy dances for ya :)

deleted_user 07/20/2011

Be proud of yourself for not giving into the temptation. Your son loves you very much, and would probably do anything he could to help you if you asked. Maybe when you are feeling down, you could plan and mother and son outing or just do something little together. Love is amazing medicine.

deleted_user 07/20/2011

You are stronger than you imagine. I am thrilled for you, and so very very proud of you. Hugs x

mystie 07/21/2011

Good for you dumping it down the drain!! Awesome job!!

deleted_user 07/21/2011

I'm playing catch up my friend. I just found this post. Everyone has responded already so all I can do is offer my support . It was a great thing you did. For what it's worth I am very proud of you. I hope things are improving for you.

mal66 07/21/2011

That was a test you were given and you passed! Glad you did; take it from me - when you're in the doom and gloom mode, alcohol clouds your vision even further (if that's possible!)...I'm very proud that you did what you did. Hope there isn't a 'next time' but if that occurs, refer back to these boards or message someone - that's what we're here for - to support one another in our dark moments...stay strong!

meandthebeast 07/21/2011

Thank you to all of you... I start counseling on Monday and am hoping to get some of these things worked out in my head... I love you guys more then you will ever know....

SmileyBear 07/21/2011

Yeah, Sweet Lady....You did the right thing.

We know when we can't get away without our families knowing. We are reminded we have it within us to drink, but do we have another recovery?

I'm glad your poured it out, and I hope you had a great dinner with your son.

I get so sick of my sponsor talking about her 30 years sometimes. And somnetimes she tells me to mop my kitchen floor. I get it. It's about keeping a distraction happening. Maybe??

Dinner with someone who loves you is the ultimate way to treat your body and mind right.

You are stronger than you realize, Darlin'.

I love you!!

deleted_user 07/21/2011

Way to go!!!!!

Its not important what you almost did, its important about the end choice, and YOU made the right choice!
Your "almost" has taught you how strong you are and what your capable of.

deleted_user 07/21/2011

Good for you to pour that bottle down the drain! I also struggle with drinking and depression. Even though my logical mind knows that drinking wont solve anything, in fact it always makes it worse, however that illogical compulsion for immediate relief can be sooo strong. That's awesome that you were able to overcome it. I am not so lucky. I still struggle with drinking and i hate it.

deleted_user 07/21/2011

So awesome that you did that! You are much stronger than many people can say. Depression demon must have been really pissed off...good for you for pissing off the demon.

Hope you are feeling much better now.

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