I hear you. It's really challenging to be coping with so many intense feelings. You're doing the best you can to reach out - on your phone, with a counselor, which is amazing, but for whatever reason, your parents aren't understanding what you need right now and that's incredibly frustrating.

It took a lot of courage for you to reach out on this forum even after your phone was taken away and I'm inspired by your desire to feel better.

I know it feels like you don't have a lot of options right now, but if you're feeling like you can't stay safe you can actually chat online with a crisis counselor at the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline website. You can do this without your phone. Here's a link so you can chat with a counselor:

https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

Once you have your phone back, if you need to talk to a crisis counselor you can text HELLO to 741741 and text with someone at Crisis Text Line.

I might also suggest talking to friends, a guidance counselor and even trying to talk to your parents again once things calm down. I know this isn't easy, but I also can tell how strong you are. Hang in there, you've got this.

You have access to us. Come Here often! We are hear for you. Any of us all likely be glad to be there for you and help you work through what we can. But you need to make the effort too and reach out. If you reach out and want the help, we will help you all we can. I promise you that

You can always check yourself in to a mental hospital. That way they know it is serious.

Hey, I understand what you are feeling. It does get better I Promise you. I will also tell you this, cutting yourself won’t stop how you are feeling. I have a lot of scars from self harming. Try to see if you get a doctor appointment with a friend may or speck to your school, they is always someone to help you I promise. Keep strong x