I'm sorry you're having such a rough time. I wish I had some perfect fix to make everything better but best I can offer is some simple advice to maybe surround yourself with some friends who can help you to get to a better place in your head? Talk to them and let them know what you're feeling and maybe just being around them will help? I know at times when I'm at my lowest and I can't stand even just existing any more I'll reach out to a friend like a light in the dark and they'll usually pull me back up so I can go on for at least another day.

I hope you feel better.. I really do!

Thank you for reaching out and sharing. I am sorry you are struggling. Just know we are here for you and to encourage you. Do you have someone like a friend or therapist you can call when you are struggling? It is great that you have been 6 months without cutting. You know you can do it. What works for you instead of cutting? Do you exercise? Do you have some physical sport you can do or games to take your mind off of the unhealthy thoughts? I like to do online youtube exercise videos that really get my heart rate up and games on my phone. I also have these two techniques that seem to help my mind. I hope you might try them and see if you find them helpful.

The 557 breathing technique is take 5 deep breaths in while thinking good thoughts about yourself like I matter, I am special, I am strong and then hold the breaths for the count of 7 focusing on those words about yourself, then let out the breath slowly for 5 seconds letting go of any anxious, self-defeating, unhealthy thought. I do this one to three times a sitting.

The gratitude journal is writing down something good every morning and night something that went well in the day, or something I appreciate about myself. Taking our focus off of the anxiety and depression and focusing on positive uplifting things really helps. What you think is what you believe. So thinking uplifting things you believe those things but the reverse is true - thinking negative self-defeating things, you will believe those. I will be praying for you. Feel free to pm me if you'd like to chat. Hugs and God Bless

I hope you feel better.

Blackrose, please give us an update. Tell me you're still here with us <3

I am here, and living lol. I ended up going to my dad the next night. That night I ended up crying myself to sleep so I didn't get the chance to do anything. I'm still clean and I haven't cut. I know it's gonna be extremely hard but now that my parents FINALLY know they'll keep an eye on me which is probably for the best right now cause I'm still not okay in any way. But I go to my counselor tomorrow. So yes I'm still very much struggling and want to cut but I've been talking and doing other things, like dancing, walking, and cleaning, to help and it has the past couple of days, but nights when I'm alone in my room are the hardest. So any advice from anyone on how to help my mind when I'm alone and still would be MUCH appreciated. Thank you seriously to everyone who has offered advice and cared. It really means a lot .

So glad to hear from you. This is great news. I am so proud of you! You should be proud too - it couldn't have been easy, but you did it. And yes, you are going to have more bad times, but take it minute by minute if you have to. I love that you have been so active. Nights are the hardest for me too. I'm not a therapist or expert of any kind, but I recently started listening to binaural beats (soundwave therapy?). I like minds in unison with subliminal messages (if you read the details they show you what they are saying that you can't hear). They have some for insomnia, anxiety, all kinds of stuff. You can find them free on youtube. Here's one: https://youtu.be/jNUHb5ZzqLQ I'm interested to know if you like it. I think it might be helping me. Sending you some positive energy tonight.

'Pro tip' since you mentioned parents - maybe show them / ask first what they think about the music thing.

I'll definitely try it out! And thank you!

Definitely check with your parents please! I didn't realize you might be under 18. Facepalm. I'm new here!

Sounds like you are doing the right things to avoid cutting. Continue to keep your mind and body occupied with healthy and fun things. How did it go with your counselor? Stay strong! I know you can do it. I will continue to be praying for you. Hugs

How's it going, BR?

Stay strong Black Rose! You can overcome this!

Its going good. I got my meds upped and it helped. I'm going to prom tonight! I have a date! It's really looking good right now. I'm to busy to worry about wanting to self harm. But I am having issues with nightmares. EVERY night. Any advice for that?

Im late to this convo but I just want to echo what the user @lendingstrength2021 said and listening to binaural beats, I am too a listener of this and this has helped me in so many ways so I would just like to say give it a try, there are loads of different youtube vidoes so find ones that work for you. I also suggest looking up Jason Stephenson on youtube as he is a great creator on Binuaral beats and stuff

There has to be something better to do then be a cutter. Get a cat or dog to care for. Put some lotion on, or buy your favourite slurpee!!!!! Accidents happen but ignorance can be avoided. We're just ignorant when we try to hurt ourselves. Actually, watch the skateboard videos where they fall ten times before they can do the trick. Its kind of funny!!!! I hope you cheered up. Have a blessed day.