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Healing/happiness sounds boring and gross

sfay
sfay

Today and yesterday were very amazing days for me, one of the happiest days I've had in over a year, but up until just 30 minutes ago, healing and being happy sounded and felt very undesirable to me almost like I would feel better and my life would be more fun if I was depressed still,i know logically I obviously would regret that and hate depression and being depressed but, right now I feel like I would be happier staying depressed and it's a very hard feeling to overcome, I wanted to be happy for so long and now that I might be I don't want it for one second, I don't know if this is normal but I hope it doesn't offend anyone because I know many people are working very hard to fight depression, and I still am too, today was just a good day

wolvessonata
wolvessonata
I think you're just not ready to move forward yet. And as I said in your other post, you're comfortable with being uncomfortable. This state your in protects you and keeps you safe. I respect your feelings and I will continue to be here for you. :)
Bluebird20
Bluebird20
I agree with wolvesson, your not ready to make changes.
maria718
maria718
You're scared to move forward, many people including myself were. Scared of change, comfortable in the familiarity of our misery and depression. You'll get to a point when you're ready, hang in there it will happen.
KimmyO
KimmyO
Sometimes we can get addicted to the adrenal rush of the bad emotions. It is an adjustment and will feel more normal in time for you. I'm glad for you, feeling happier and less depressed, that is good news. Take each day as it comes and do the best you can with it all, good or bad. Give yourself much grace, and congrat yourself for each step up, big or small. I'm proud of you! =) Taking ginseng can help get rid of the sticky negative thoughts that loop too, so you stay out of the rut of negative depressive thoughts. As soon as I recognize that coming on, I take some ginseng pills from Nature's Sunshine. Also, a quality multi vitamin with extra magnesium and Bs will be very helpful to calm your mind body and spirit and heal your nerves. You are worth treating well and loving well. Take care of you and you will be there more for others too. <3
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