Hi DancingDolly92. I looked at your post and I can relate 100%. This is the reflection of my life right now as well. I completely understand what you are going through and I am there with you. You are definitely not alone. I am with u.

you might like my FB page www.facebook.com/SpoonieLifeHack. It is meant to support people with disabilities and/or chronic illness.. I post serious stuff to make you think as well as lighthearted things to bring a smile to your face on a hard day.

There is also a group attached where you can chitchat with other people who understand what it is like to live with illness. We have *distraction posts* to get your mind occupied on something besides pain, stress, flashbacks, etc

Take one day at a time and just do whatever is in your ability to get by. I was laid off from my last job, and I literally woke up and searched for jobs every day from morning until night. I got something else within about 2 weeks. Don’t stop trying.

I really hope you find a new job and some will deserved peace. I hope we can encourage you in times like these

I know there is no easy answer. What I try to do in situations where I find my life and depression overwhelming, for what ever reason, I try to break my response to the situation into pieces, or segments, what ever you want to call them. Trying to respond to it as a whole is quite impossible to take pieces of the situation and respond. Having anxiety? Take just a couple of minutes each day or really whenever you can manage to try some easy mindfulness/relaxation exercises they can help tremendously. Even focusing on breathing can relieve some of the anxiety and help us think more productively and helps with critical thinking skills as well.
For depression, It just really sucks I know too well. Sometimes a little extra sunlight during the day will help lift the spirits, look at bright colors in nature such as flowers in bloom. Look at children and how they play and laugh. If you can't do that dig up an old video of sesame street, and watch it you are never too old!
Try and spice up your resume a little and make a new cover letter and spice that up as well. While waiting for your therapist to come back make notes about how you felt while they were gone and make sure to bring them in to your next session. Waiting can be the hardest thing and financial burden as well. Look for all the help you can find in your community for supplemental food sources and help with utilities. Be your own advocate because you always can count on yourself!