Please don't do it! I am so sorry for what you have been going through. I am here for you, just message me, I would be glad to listen to you. Please, don't take a decision to end your life...............

I'm tired of feeling like this. I know life is hard sometimes but I'm so dark and confused I have no idea anymore.

There is light and dark in everybody. Life is a test. One day this will all be over. Hold on to God's promises. He did not promise this life would be easy, but he does promise no more suffering in Heaven. Please trust the Lord has you right where He wants you and that He is giving you strength to fight your battle. I know the pain of suffering. Just know that God loves you and we are here for you.

First of all, I think talking to people helps. You don't have to agree with what everyone says, but getting any feedback is still supportive. I don't want you to die because your life is just beginning. Texting and messaging helps, but I think one-on-one conversations, either on the phone or in person helps the most. I know where you are at because I have been there before. Close your eyes and just take slow deep breaths and do this until you have released some of your hurt.

Thank you everyone. I know there's hope and a light but right now I can't see it. Just to much on my plate and I can't handle this no more. Today I talked to my councilor today it kinda help. But not sure no more

Dear Emily,
being tired, so freaking tired that you would rather die than be tired anymore, is actually a huge sign that you are strong and persevering. Look at everything you've already made it through.
you are a survivor!
i know it hurts so bad. I wish i could take it all away from you. Please try to slow down your thoughts about how feel. Take it second by second. don't anticipate not feeling better. if you put enough of those little tiny second together you build a life time. and a lifetime holds so much, good and bad. Please you have seen so much bad, please don't cheat yourself out of the good before it gets here. write sing call stand in the middle of your town and scream or dance if you have to. but fill the second with trying.
without going into detail, i been shoveling sh@t all my life. if I stopped shoveling when I was your age, I would have missed the love of my life and the only good I've ever known. my love passed from cancer this last Sept. and believe me that love, that good was worth every pain I had before it and every pain Ill have after it.
triple hugs

We all care about you Emily and we need you to stay strong and fight this depression.

I'm sorry to hear you're struggling. I'll say a prayer.

Nancy6464 I'm so sorry for your loss. Ever since last May my world and life has gone down hill. And with recently what's going on is rough. The lowest I've ever seen. My mind is still set for this is my last year. I already told my Mom next year is like this I'm done I'm going.

Emily, please hold on, the light is coming

There have been seasons in my life, too, that I thought were hopeless and never ending, but I was patient and held on, and things did get so much better. There are hard seasons in life especially when things don't happen the way we want them to or expect them to, but things change. People change. Circumstances change. Suicide is a permanent answer to a temporary problem. You said your life has gone downhill. I believe you can expect it to go uphill again. Life is like that. Ups and downs. You are wonderful for opening up and expressing your pain. We all have pain in this life. When we come together we can support each other and help one another through it. I know that God has a purpose and a plan for your life. He loves you immensely. You are worth fighting for. When you face the hard times in your life, you can become stronger and more able. Have you read the gospel of John? Maybe read through this book. Set your mind on what you find in its pages. You can message me if you want to talk. Or you can pray and God will listen. He will carry all the things you think you can not handle anymore. I know from experience.

Thank you everyone. I did end up calling my councilor last night and he called me this morning. We are going to work on a few things. Last night me and my Mom got into it it hurt.

I must say it hurts. Me and Mom got into a fight she asked me how o was doing and what's wrong. I told her don't feel good headache and my brain is acting weird and thinking bad thoughts. So she said ever since your Dad passed you changed a lot and you never thought about suicide before he past. In the fact is I have thought of suicide before and cutted before but she never knew. Then she said if your so unhappy why don't you just do it. If you don't want to cut yourself to death find a shop leave the truck going and windows cracked and it will put you asleep. Since I don't care about her or anyone who loves me. Your Dad must of meant more than anyone else. I'm just done trying. When I feel down and out I don't think of suicide. I know you loved your Dad more than me. That's from my Mom.

I don't know what to do anymore. I love my Mom very much but for her to say that to me. Makes me want to give up faster.

Where do I turn? She did say this morning she's sorry for what she said, I just ignore her.

EmilyRoseMari46, it is hard when the people who love you also are the ones who tear you down. I do understand your pain. My dad died when I was 6. My mom left when I was 7. My grandparents said they loved me but they didn't want to spend time with me. I was very lonely as a child, and a lot of the time I wanted out of my situation. It wasn't pleasant, but now I have a husband who loves me. 4 daughters. Life looks different for me now than it did then. Do you have friends you can reach out to? People who could help you if they knew a little bit of the pain and the struggle you are going through? It takes support and love and hope to come out from not wanting to continue. All of that is available. The question is how do you connect to that? Do you have a church family that you could go to? A women's Bible study group? Honestly, going to the Bible for answers is what has changed my mind on so many things. Jeremiah 29:11-14 "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. Then you will call on me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you, declares the Lord." John 10:10 Jesus is speaking and he says, "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy: I (Jesus) have come that they may have life, and have it to the full." John 3:16-17 "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through Him." These are the promises that have given me hope and a reason to live. I have found others who support me and love me and want to see me succeed. It didn't come from the family I was born into. It has been other people who have come across my path. Please send me a message if you would like to talk. Please don't give up. Life is a beautiful gift that we only get one of. (((hugs)))

EmilyRoseMari46, How are you doing? I have been thinking about and praying for you. I would love to hear from you.

Please don't give up! Try looking in the mirror and telling yourself that you're beautiful and you want you to live a great life! Since your Mom said stuff that tore you down, try to talk to yourself, alone, the way a really encouraging would. Be encouraging to yourself! You are special and deserve ir!