I post here a lot. Things seem to be deteriorating for me. It is getting more difficult for me to function and do regular day to day things. I am missing a lot of work, extremely anxious and depressed and lonely. Not able to pull myself together. Frantic with fear and sadness.
I need some stability and support in my life that I can count on. Everything seems to be falling apart and I can't handle that. I am thinking of retiring in a month or less due to my mental and physical state. Although it will be very bad financially I think it is what I have to do. My job is absolutely toxic right now. horrifically abusive supervisor, very unsafe work environment, my body continues to break down. I'm practically shaking with anxiety and fear right now as I type this.
If I could end my life I would. I would have done it a long time ago. It's not that I don't appreciate life, I do. But the pain and hardship that has come along with my life is getting unbearable. I'm in so much pain right now, I just need it to stop. I don't care how.
Thank you for listening. I'm grateful for this site. I called that suicide hotline this morning and got a bad person. That didn't help.
Hey, everybody, just wanting to say thanks for getting me through the latest gut punch of another pandemic travel ban. As you all know, I got PTSD growing up in Mexico and Uruguay as a missionary kids with parents who weren't evacuated from a war zone. They got PTSD really bad and turned to violence in the house that sadly matched the violence of the war out in the streets.I wasn't a soldier,...
Hi y'all I've been doing fairly well today with my anxiety .. but I was wondering if anyone still notices physical syptoms that still creep up even when not too anxious.. like I always have tinges of pain in my chest.. arms..neck ..etc.. or burning in my chest off and on .. Does anyone else experience this as well?