You are the only one that can get yourself out of bed. Depression is an illness that sucks the life out of us. I know how hopeless the world and life can feel.
I have attempted suicide. It's hard to to carry on with life when that's the last thing you want.
I have to make the choice on a daily basis to live. I wake up and i go to my therapists or docs and i take my meds cos i know i have to.

I can't say i'm in your situation but i do struggle with money, i am on an invalids benefit and it's not really enough to live.
It about making little changes at a time. Maybe you could talk with your brother and see if he could start to pay you back some of the money he owes you.
We have to make our own changes, we might be waiting a long time if we only rely on god.

It is very good to try to think what God wants. He did give us free will. I ask myself what God wants every day. The answer I get is that Jesus came down from Heaven, knowing He would be crucified for this message, to show mankind HOW MUCH WE ARE LOVED. He only wants us to love, not to be judgemental. Only love. Showing love the little ways. It is really hard for our loved ones to be out of work. This ecomony can be overwhelming. But..Jesus said we should spread HIS LOVE, a little every day. Yes, I wonder about 2012 too. But: today is today. We can spread the Love or we can not. It is our choice.

Mikail, may I ask why you post all you do in the Crisis Centre?
God is not in crisis. He is in full control.
As for 2012, have you ever heard of false prophets and Jesus saying that we should never try to guess the time of His return?
God isn't some kind of 'maker of all things well' time is endless and this life is like one grain of sand in all the sand in the world. When you look at eternity this way, you will see how God see's a much bigger picture than we can.
Have faith and love, it's all He asks.
Niki

I've seen alot of posts on DS about ppl making fun of the idea of God, so I was a little apprenhensive. I'm GLAD you still believe through ALL that you are going through, and YOU are not ALONE in your suffering, you are just being a little more honest! A long time ago I ask wy does it seem the rotten ppl seem to be doing well and living life and everyone else is hurting and struggling and the answer was because the devil already has them, he doesn't need to waste his time, it's YOU who he is after.
When I am feeling like the world is on me and it sucks, I think of JOB!!! I wish you Peace in the knowledge that 'someday' 0;) it will all be worth it!

good reply agrace

If there is no GOD. where do where we go when we DIE!!!!!!

In a coffin under the earth. the end.

I wonder the same thing about God's plan for me. I have yet to figure out why God has let me struggle for three long years without a job. I've really questioned him in all my struggles. My spiritual director keeps asking me what do I hear God saying to me. Darned if I know....I don't hear anything.

I don't think we die and get whisked away to heaven or hell. Jesus said that heaven and hell are states of mind. This is also a Buddhist perspective, and common to other religions as well.

I think that the more we realize our God-nature and the more we forgive both ourselves and others, the more we love ourselves and others as part of God, we get closer to enlightenment.

The body is the last thing we give up that keeps us separate from God and if we die in a state of enlightenment, we continue in a blissful state without a body. Otherwise we continue in some other form until we work out our pain, fear, and anger.

I'm sorry about the difficulty you're experiencing with your brother and I empathize; I've had plenty of pain in my own life too. But I also know that if I am constantly aware that I am one with God and with all life, I can't really suffer. My mind is not yet disciplined enough to experience freedom from pain, but I hope to one day, probably not in this lifetime.

In the here and now it doesn't always help much. We still have to deal with bills, sickness, emotional difficulty, the whole human thing. But people who attained enlightenment didn't get it from cushy lives, they just learned to rise above all the muck.

I wish for both of us refuge in the God that is within us.

Love, Beth

Mikail- Thanks so much for sharing how you feel and where you are at. I haven't read all of the replies yet, but I want you to know that you are not the only one struggling to get out of bed. I'm struggling with that too, so I really do understand what you are going through! I can't really comment about the "God" stuff as I don't think I know any more about it than anyone else, but at least you can know that you're not alone with the struggle just to get out of bed day to day. Those who don't understand are lucky that they don't have to know what it's like. Obviously they just don't get it or they would be more supportive of people like you and me. All I can say is just to hang in there as best as you can. That's all you can do and that's your best so that's good enough. I'd also like to add that if you're feeling guilty for not being able to get out of bed, I can relate to that too. Let's talk!

God has a plan for us. But, just like anything else you have to put forth some effort to achieve it. Don't pray for potatoes without a hoe in hand. In other words, be ready to do your part.

Amyz74..my thoughts exactly! if i could hear what God was saying I'd be in a better place emotionally. someone said in an earlier post and it's so very true---waiting for God's plan to kick in is so very very very very hard!!! Lord i'm so tired and i want to just give up!!