I'm sorry. I hope you get to feeling better soon.

I am sorry my friend. I wish we could take your pain, and despair, and suffering away. Please keep hanging in there. As my grandmother use to always tell me. "It can't rain all the time darlin'" I'm here if you need to talk. xx

Sorry you're feeling so bad right now. Did something happen to trigger all this?

My thoughts exactly!!!

sorry, did you know there's a song with the title that you wrote? When I saw what you wrote, I instantly thought of HeeHaw when those men would sit there and sing that very song.
Anyway, I truly hope you feel better, and I hope you don't think I trivialized your problems by the last paragraph.

"What I need to do, I don't do...what I want to do, I can't do...and...what I don't want to do, THAT is what I do!!!"

Don't get mad, get even. Use your anguish to fight it.

I do understand this. Good vent.

Have you tried vitamin D? Have you tried meditation (google mindfulness or guided meditation. Have you tried volunteering? Do one thing to make yourself proud of yourself each day, no matter how small. Leave affirmations around your house like on your mirror. Try to turn off the negative self-talk. If you're not sure you're having negative self talk keep a notebook with you for a full day and write down every negative thing you think about yourself or say to your self like "stupid" or "loser" or "useless" or any kind of negative thought. Then once you realize you're doing that to yourself replace the negative things with well thought out positive thoughts like "I'm smart" "I'm figuring this out" "I'm a good person going through a tough time" "I like my eyes" or anything at all to fill in the negative self talk.

You have been around long enough to know that this disease is like a roller coaster ride. It goes up and down. I am sorry you are feeling so down but it will get better a little at a time. Are you seeing a pdoc or therapist, even a gp will work. In other words, are you on meds? If not you may want to consider them, if you are, maybe they need to be tweaked a little bit because they are no longer working for you. I hope you find a way to feel better.

. . . Deep dark depression; excessive misery; if it weren't for bad luck, I'd have no luck at all; gloom, despair, and agony on me!!! Hee Haw!!!

Thought I would finish the thought of your post's theme.

If I could, I'd sweep it all away for you. Since I cannot, I offer you a gentle hugg, and tell you that I have been there and done that, and it passed away. Hang on. YOu will get through this!!!

HERE IS A SOFT HUG SO SORRY YOUR HURTING IT DOES GET BETTER .
(((ANGEL))).

THANK YOU ALL FOR YOU REPLIES AND SUPPORT!

I really do appreciate it...its just that I can't seem to catch a break...

I don't know what it is ... well ... maybe I do...but ...I'm just stuck in a rut!!!...

nothing and I do mean nothing wants to work out for me...I am really frustrated...and anxious...even my computers - which is my hobby - are acting up on me!!!

I'm at that point where I just want to run away and scream


AAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

...but I can't!!!!!....so I just want to sleep so I don't have to think about it...but if I sleep - nothing - and I do mean nothing gets done...

but I don't feel like doing anything anyway....

but I have a lot of crap that I need to do...

but I have absolutely no motivation to do any of it....

GOD....maybe I should just commit myself to the hospital...and find out what the f'ing problem is....clearly I'm sick...so sick that I don't want to do anything to fix it!!!!!! ARGH!!!! I think I'm just going to go crazy...bye for now!

Hi, do u think the hospital will help? My therapist n psychiatrist want me to go..I feel like you do..sleeping to avoid the pain..suicidal. I wish I had more to do..a job that had some dignity. But if u think that the hospital can help with meds and you can afford the time away from work n hv health insurance, then u shd go. It sounds like you are at ur wits end. Sometimes we can't dig ourselves out alone, we are that low. Honestly, I don't think I'll ever be the person I once was...but like you I'm waiting for that break. I hope it comes,,keep trying to help yoursel..think about outpatient hospital care too. Good luck

i totally agree :(

What I love about you Depressed is that you state EXACTLY what you are feeling and you let it be known. You are actually helping yourself by letting all of that venting out in the open. It's not in me to say a lot of swearing words, I'm mostly just the baby swear words but If I could swear, MAN oh MAN look out! I hope that when you vent here it really does help you. In fact, I think you are helping others at the same time. Thank you. GB