I'm so sorry you're feeling bad. I don't think any of us can help others when we get sucked into the black hole, so don't feel guilty about not being here. I'm guessing your sons are really more worried than they are pissed off.

Sending you lots of big {{{{{{hugs}}}}}}

Good to see you again beastie, I gotta ask about meds and therapy. How are you doing with those two things? Lucky you work for your son and can take time off when you feel bad without losing your job. What's your pdoc say about this black hole you're in? Maybe a med change is what's needed. Big Hugs

I am gonna find the sorry evil thing that keeps digging those holes and I am gonna do more than kick it's sorry ass . I'm gonna obliterate it. As for you my sweet sweet friend I am laying down a bed of feathers for you to land on. Then I will be there to help get you back up. Sweetie you are not alone. You have nothing to be sorry for. You can get out of that hole . It may take some time and some work but you can get out of there with help. You are so brave to let us know where you are right now and to ask for help. It takes courage to do that while those depression demons are screaming "shut up no one cares anyway !!! " They're lying to you dear because you are so very very much loved and extremely important to us and to those grand babies. Me personally I will not give up till you are back up and out of the hole. I ruvvvvv you ronnnngggg tiiiiieeee my sweet sweet friend. Please hang in there help is coming.
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( Big Ginormous Tender Healing HUGS )))))))))))))))))))))))))))) to you Beastie.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Dear, Sweet Beastie,

I am so sorry that you are having such a difficult time right now.

You are a wonderful person and a wonderful friend.

Sending You Love And (((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))

Sit back, close your eyes. I am going to put about a zillion good thoughts into a purple wave, and send it into the 'strangeways'. If you can believe in the good will of others, you will be able to see the silver violet light with your inner eye. Remember, we seek through prayer and meditation. Like Chicken Soup. It cannot hurt!!!!

Love Ya, Beastie. Say, this hole is not so bad!!! A little mood light, a few pillows, some snacks!!! We could fix this sucker up!!! Whaddya say? Just until we find the door, and walk out!!!

thank you guys.. You always know how to make someone feel a little better when they with the evil demons... I will return the favor soon.. Or I hope soon... Ok.. Im praying for soon......

That f...ing black hole. I like what Bob said about the decor and trying to improve the space. A little humor is a very good thing.
I am glad u told us you are in the pit of despair.
I am throwing a rope down right now...don't need to climb just get your hands around it and the glue I put on will keep your grip and us DS's will yard you out of there!
On a more serious note....remember that the time in the pit is just that, it is a time..you will pull out again and have some brighter days.
When I am really weak I take a bible and open it across my chest and I pray against the demons in the name of Jesus. Nothing in my opinion is stronger than the blood of Jesus. I don't know if you are a believer or not but just saying that's what I do. I really believe there are spiritual beings around us and some of them evil that want us to be believe all these lies and to ultimately have us kill ourselves.
I'm getting carried away here.
All the best, love from an occasional occupant of the black hole

Yes God. It took me a week to get out of mine.

Know the feeling so well. Don't worry about helping us, just look after you. Pop in and out and let us keep you going, it will pass but until then know you are loved.

i hope you feel better soon Y, i dont know what to say to try help but mahhh just hope u feel better soon. mils x

Sweet sweet Beastie, I am so sorry you are in that dark hole. Bless Your Heart. You have many of us here who RUV U and we can all grab hold of you and help pull you out. I am praying that the darkness lifts soon. You just take good care of you, okay?

I ruv u rong rong time xoxoxo

Hang in there, Beastie! It will pass. I'm sure you've been there before, as most of us have. We know it will eventually get better. Please take care of yourself. It's not giving in to get down in that hole; only if we allow it to keep us there.

You're stronger than this. It doesn't feel like it right now, but deep within, you know you are. Pull from that deep within. Do what you know is necessary to pull yourself out from the depths of that hole and kick the "beast's" ass once you've reached the top. (Just make sure that you are well away from the hole once you draw your foot back and lay into that demon; it may try to throw you back down in the hole. Better yet, kick its ass down into the hole. That's the best scenerio. And, then, throw rocks down at "it". Hopefully, most of the rocks will beat "it" in the head and knock "it" unconscious so "it" will be out of your hair for a long time)

I'm pulling and praying for you.

(((Hugs)))

Hi. Black hole just about describes it. Sucking every bit of matter and life in. But, as the others say...it will pass. Something in your OP made me think "Do the holes get deeper as we age?" I know my first major one in my 20's (piece of cake-no meds), then 2nd one in late 30's (worse, deeper, needed meds for 2 years). Now this one, early 50's seems the worst yet. Have been on meds (AD, Antianxiety for 2+ years now and I think they've pooped out). We have to crawl out, but crap! Therapy starts for me Thursday. Wonder what they'll find? Blessings to you, friend, as you make this climb one more time, okay? One more time.

Ruv you troo!

Yes, depression sucks. Now if we could just harness all that sucking and make the worlds biggest vacuum cleaner we'd all be wealthy!

Can you point to the cause of the feelings? I know that this time of year can be very hard on us, all those times the TV shows (and commercials) tell us we are supposed to be happy and all that other stuff.

Sending you positive thoughts for better times!

Be real quiet for a moment and listen.....do you hear me breathing?
I 've been in the hole for weeks.
This morning I just decided to sit down and wait.
So I 'm right here with you....
Maybe we can build a campfire and tell stories.