Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Im so stupid. I let him in, let him close, let him into my heart and body. SO STUPID! I trusted him... He loves her... he used me... again... and I let him. He is my kryptonite, no matter how strong I think I am... I fall to him, and God help me... Im tired of pain, tired of hurting, tired of letting people close to me only to drive YET ANOTHER FUCKING DAGGER into my heart. ITs tattered, shredded, and glued back together to the point pieces are missing, chunks, holes... barely together, and yet another piece is stolen, cut away and burned... kill me. I cant take the pain any more... kill me and be merciful.
I really found it hard reading that because I feel (not the same) similar sometimes and you believe that some kind of sick joke is out to get you when you feel its your fault people cant get close until someone screws you over again and again and again.
i hope you can feel close to someone but be able to stand up for YOU, be there for YOU, learn when to let go and be able to ease that pain. you are missing the love in your heart somewhere - who knows maybe from the past but all i can say is, i know that feeling too well and being rejected. but i bet you are a smart young person, and you can evetually teach yourself how to pick yourself up quicker after you lose people. its difficult but you can do it.
never give your heart away straight away; give it time, and dont hint that you find it hard to trust. just go with your gut and if ANTHING doesnt feel right (without being paranoid) you are probably right for letting go.
take care of yourself. I really hope this gets better for you and you find someone who is likeminded.
"Your happiness is intertwind with your outlook on life"
So since Wednesday, I have been pampering myself, resting, i went out and bought some omega 3's cause it's supposed to help with depression and is really good for the skin. So try to help yourself. My grandmother committed suicide when I was fifteen. It eats me up sometimes. I miss her so much. Suicide hurts the ones that love you forever.