It feels like everyone in my life is either in a relationship or is willingly not in one. And any time I become invested in someone, or want to become invested, it shatters. They're already involved with someone, they don't like me that way, they only see me as a friend. And it's so stupid and unfair. You won't know how generous, loving, wonderful of a person I am until and unless you give me a chance. I feel like I do everything right and nothing lines up for me. And it makes me so angry. It makes me feel like I need to break something. And not just break something, but utterly obliterate it. It makes me want to put my head through a wall, scream, break my fingers off. It's not fair. What am I doing wrong? Where have I gone so horribly wrong in my life that I'm being punished so? What's wrong with me? Am I destined to be alone? I will kill myself before that happens. I will not accept being alone, or only having pets or some bullshit like that. It's not fair. I'm a good person, and no one wants to give me a chance. Maybe it would be better if I plunged a knife into my throat. It would be better than another "oh you're so sweet, but I'm taken". Fuck off down a hole then