So yesterday my nephew got his braces put on and he spent the night with me. He woke up hurting and after giving him some tylenol I just talked to him a while about funny stuff and I mostly talked about when I was younger in HS and had more friends and all the fun things we did. After he fell asleep I stayed awake wondering what happened to that girl she was happy or at least I had friends to do things with but I was always socially awkward. I just managed to be like "hey i'm not popular or get asked out on dates (I was overweight in school only lost weight after I graduated) but at least i have some friends to not be popular with" now those friends are married and moved on. While here I am sad, lonely and tbh I feel lost.
I want a good job and an apartment but then there is the part of me that is thinking "you can't hold down a job you don't even know what you want to do in life because most of your day is spent worrying about anxiety attacks and if you are really depressed or not"
See now i'm wonderng if i'm depressed or just lazy and then I start to think maybe I should take medication for my depression/anxiety but then I think "why can't you figure this out youself what if you aren't depressed and you don't need the medicine"
Is that anxiety or just paranoia? I know that I used to love going and doing things with friends and family now its a chore to get out of bed, i'm embaressed when I cant afford things, feel the dissapointment from my family when I don't get the job and then dissapointment in myself when I secretly am a bit relieved because even though I want the job I also desperatly don't want the anxiety that comes with it.
Hi everyone I have been divorced for about a year now I was married for 10 years still struggling with just letting things go it was all I knew for so long and I try to get by with the denial and dating but honestly I'm still not okay and I don't know if I ever will be okay I really feel like I lost a piece of me not necessarily from losing her but my family being split up we do have two kids I...
I can speak for all but I know for me that when I am attempting to express how I feel to people that most of the time I feel rejected because I can tell that they aren't listening. And that has been something that has gone on majority of my life. I was the black sheep and unwelcomed and not wanted. For a long time that hurt, it hurt not just to hear it, that my feelings werent cared about, but...