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Haha wow it's like we work at the same place! I'm the exact same way with my job. As a child I promised myself I'd never stay somewhere I wasn't happy. There are two options here in my opinion: one, if you hate it change it. Or two, if you hate it leave it behind. It's hard to drop a job if it pays well and you can't find another one to pay the bills, so maybe you're stuck here for a while. However, it's a stepping stone. I tried dying and cutting my hair to spice up my own confidence and to bring out my personality since work tries to strip us of individuality. If that isn't an option you can always see about cutting back your hours if possible. I also know my work place provides "FMLA" which is a thing that allows you to call off if you have a condition or illness that prevents you from working to standard. It still gives you half your pay for the day and you don't get faulted for it. Sadly the girl I work with abuses it, but I'm hoping to get it after my year mark. Anyways, I hope this helps and maybe sparks an idea for you! Things get better. You just have to watch for the perfect timing to move forward and beyond what seems to be holding you down.

So If you hate work so much, are you trying to find a different job, so that you can quit this one? Going on Interviews during your lunch break, going out and filling out applications on your lunch break? This is the time of year where just about every retail store in any mall or medium to large city is hiring for various positions. Restaurants are also hiring like crazy right now, people have tons of jobs to choose from.

Thank you all for your kind words and support. I have a difficult time with change so that is another issue with me. Thank you b_happy for your advice.

I'm sorry that your work situation is so negative. The good news is that you have the choice to get a new job. I know that job searching isn't fun, but no job is worth staying in and being miserable everyday.