welcome to our corner of the Internet....hope friends here are supportive....I know I am pretty much a loner too but crave having friends....I just got a big ego boost about month ago after rekindling friendship with my high school best friend he asked me to be his caregiver while he is home alone during day as he has Parkinson and his wife works....he works from home as a financial guru and his needs are great when it comes to mobility...he cannot drive any more and he uses a walker and is a fall risk at that too.....so I sit and surf the net on his wifi with my laptop and if he needs any kind of help I am there....we sit quietly most of time but have different lives today...plus he is busy with working online and stuff...but to be given chance to spend time with him again since we had separation of over 20yrs is a good feeling....we are still very good friends....

plus he is paying me! woot woot....

I’m so sorry to hear that, Wendy. Please know that you’re not alone. I appreciate your willingness to share about your struggles. Life can be stressful and overwhelming at times. It’s good you’re seeing a therapist. Do you have a support group nearby where you can connect with people regularly? I just said a prayer for you, and I hope that God will surround you with His loving presence and provide the comfort and strength you need at this time. You can always share your heart out and you don’t need to carry your burdens alone. We all care about you and are here to support you. Sending hugs to you!

I am sorry you are struggling so much. You deserve to have a happy life. I think that in time you will find the therapy beneficial. It takes time and a lot of work to go through therapy. If you don't think that your therapist is helping you, you might want to consider changing to a different therapist. Sometimes it takes several different therapists to find the one you connect the best with. Continue to talk with people in this group who are here to listen and offer support.

Hi Wendy
I'm so glad you shared your feelings and your story because you sound very deserving of genuine help, care and/or support.

I'm not going to try to relate to your situation and share my story because it's probably not going to help all that much. So instead I'd like to share something with you that I think a lot of people forget. Especially when they has been to the breaking point of suicide. It becomes hard for them to reach up and go after a good life, once they've fallen so low.

Anyways.

Sometimes people already have all of the power they need to make the life changes they seek and the humongous strength to overcome their pain problems and fears from their past. However they don't know how to bring it out of themselves and might not even know it's there at all!

I think these people would feel weak, helpless and possibly empty. And it's horrible to think of all that potential being wasted because someone just didn't believe in themselves.

There's no shame in asking for help, support and encouragement. To boost your confidence and light your spark. So you can find the life tools u have hidden within you.

Fortunately,, we have control of ourselves so we can make anything happen. We literally get to choose the life we want. Ther are endless paths, all going different directions. We simply have to put ourselves onto that path. Then follow it to get what we want. The hard part is choosing and deciding what life we really want.

So Wendy
If you don't like something,
change it.
If something upsets you,
get rid of it.
If you want something,
go get it!

Start with small changes and see what an impact something new and positive can have on your life.

If you want happiness then you have to be the one to go get it. Whether that happiness is hidden somewhere inside you or in something else.... never stop chasing it. Then when you find it never forget it and smother and drench yourself in it everyday because you deserve that happiness.

thx everybody for you kind words. it helps. the people around me tend to be really harsh so appreciate the support. have a good night/day.

Hi. Im also 53. I have been single for ten years. I know how you feel. Im lonely but dont mind being alone. I wont compromise myself which leads to my being alone. Try to enjoy your own company if you can. Peace

to lifeasick game. yea, I don't really mind being alone most of the time. I enjoy solitude and quiet but sometimes it sucks. i'm picky also. don't want to be with someone unless i'm crazy about them. peace to you too

Hello, I appreciate your strength to reach out for support. I know you don’t deserve to feel this way. We sometimes feel alone. Please don’t let anyone make you feel bad for being alone. There are others who may have a mate but it’s the wrong person; because the person brings them down and is no good for them. I see you want to find the right person and you are patient to let the man find you. It’s understandable that being alone hurts, but this is temporary and you will find a great man and be happy with him. Yes, you will have rest and peace. I know that you deserve happiness and the best and this is what you will have. I know we often times think why is it taking so long. But, we have hope and every day brings hope and we can look forward to this. Sometimes it’s difficult to understand why others are the way they are towards us. This is not fair to you. I would like for you to reach out to those who are there for you to vent. Try to volunteer, donate and give back to the community. I can see that you have a lot to offer the world. Pursue what you enjoy. It’s understandable, that it is sometimes hard to connect with others. Try to say what makes you comfortable when talking. I believe that therapy is good to release how you feel, and the therapist is there to help you through what you experience and to help with coping. Remember you can tell them anything. Lastly, I would like to recommend; The Samaritans it’s a 24-hour confidential hotline at (212) 673-3000. The Samaritans will help you through these feelings and is there through any crisis. They are also there in case you need someone to talk with. They are a great source to use between your therapy sessions. We are here for you anytime.