where is the constant emotional abuse coming from, and can you get away from it?

avoidant personality disorder----I was in a yahoo group for that years ago; you might want to see if that yahoo group is still around.

can you try a new therapist?

sam-e pills at walmart are supposedly good for mood, though expensive. I drank some catnip tea an hour ago, and its starting to make me sleepy.

maybe a pet would help you; they're nice when they are young, but are heart breaking when they get old.

pa stinks; I've lived here my whole life....though on craigslist everybody in every state complains where they live.

I'm convinced that if I had lots of money I could have the peace, contentment, and love I've rarely had.

remaining in an abusive environment will keep things from improving thats for sure

your poor spirit is stuck in a bad place
it needs space, oxygen, sunlight, freedom, peace

This time of the year makes it worse with the cold and darkness too. You seem to be an introvert like me. That makes it hard to make friends when you basically never leave the house. I work from home too so I never see anyone unless I go to the store.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that you are not alone :) Everyone in this support group understands all too well what you are feeling. You are doing the right things. Anti depressants are tricky. It took me forever to find that Prozac helps and Klonopin relieves the anxiety which was crippling me.

I know it sucks to just do simple things but I push myself. Light excercise and keeping the house clean seem to help. Writing all my stupid thoughts in my journal also helps. I try to push myself to go to like Subway for something a few times a week for lunch. Normal people don't think about it but for people like us doing something simple is actually a pretty big deal and I feel better afterward.

Please know you are not alone! Please keep posting and know you will always have support here :)

I have been on 38 different medications and hundreds of combinations but I still have hope. I am finally on meds that help. Am doing lifestyle changes to my life that also help. I quit smoking too. I go to and run my own support groups around my state of RI. I hope you feel better soon!

penntucky - the abuse comes from my mom. She has her own mental health issues which have gotten worse since my dad passed away in October 2012. I tend to be the target of her frustrations. Right now I have no income on my own so I don't know how to get out of here. I want to be able to work to become independent, but my depression is still very debilitating so I am not quite there yet.

I was in that avoidant personality yahoo group as well. I can't remember how long ago it was, but I think I left because everyone was high functioning compared to me and it depressed me.

I am going to talk to my psychiatrist about a new therapist.

I have a cat and she is pretty much my only source of comfort. I agree it is heartbreaking when they get old.

I don't like PA either, but I live in a pretty terrible town. My goal is to move some day.

I am not sure I'd have love or contentment if I had money, but at least it would enable me to move somewhere peaceful and close to nature.


Justine - you are so right. I feel like I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. I am not well enough to get out on my own, but I feel like my environment makes it hard to get well enough.

scg15233 - Thank you for the response. This winter has been a particularly bad one here so that doesn't help me any either. I am definitely an introvert. I try to push myself to get out when I can, but some days I just wish I could hide away from the world for a while.

worldofblah4 - I am so happy to hear you found something that works and you still have hope. That gives me hope. Thank you for sharing.

Unfortunately it is hard, and even harder for those of us who have to deal with depression. Are you being abused right now in your life? There are so many medications out there so please don't give up finding the right one. The one I take has worked very well for me and when it seemed to stop working, I went off of it for awhile, then went back on to it and on my way I went. Yes, contentment and love is what we all need. Sometimes we can only find it in certain people and in certain ways. I won't discuss what I mean in this post but feel free to PM me any time! Hugs GB

Thank you GB!

That is a good questing: Why is that so hard? I wish I knew the answer. But I can tell you this. You're not alone. People keep tell me to exericise more and apparently that helps a little bit. I have to try it because i'm running out of options.