Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Ellee 01/04/2017

Hi, guys. I thought I'd try this and see if it helps. Maybe if I talk to someone it'll change things.

I'm kind of not feeling much of anything these days. It's almost like I've lost the ability to do so. I don't feel happy. I don't feel sad. I'm really calm actually but I don't think I should be. Things are kind of falling apart for me. I work two jobs and I might be close to losing both of them. Coworkers are asking what's wrong with me. They're saying I'm being "distant", "unemotional", and not talking enough. I don't understand why.

It's always been hard for me to make conversation with people. I don't like to talk if I have nothing to say. I don't feel like my behavior has changed but I'm being repeatedly told it has. It's strange. I'm not worried about losing my jobs. I should be though. I feel like I'm a million miles away from everything and I can't get back. I'm not even sure I want to.

I want to go for a walk and never stop walking. But all I do is work and lay in bed. I don't take care of my dogs properly. I forget to feed them. I forget to feed myself. My house is a mess. I keep saying I'll clean it, but I don't. It was my birthday two days ago. I always thought I'd die young. I never planned on making it this far.

It might seem like I'm freaking out but I promise I'm not. I've been very calm lately, I don't think I've ever felt so much of nothing. I hope you all are doing okay. It's a beautiful night where I am.

LonelyGirlL 01/04/2017

Sounds like depression. Some people react to depression by feeling numb. I kind of know what you mean when you say that you don'the like talking when you don't have anything to say. Yet, most of the time I can talk about anything. I guess it just depends on how comfortable I feel to who I am talking to. Anyway, feel free to message me to talk. I hope you feel better. *hugs*

TooMuch 01/04/2017

Depression can definitely feel numb like that at times. I think the fact that you aren't taking care of yourself and other things that need taken care of is a big clue.

Lonelysoul 01/05/2017

Happy. birthday I know doesn't feel so happy but it trust I know depression I know about running working to much sleeping to much thinking to much I get U I'm for I. Need to talk I got you.

bridgie101 01/05/2017

definitely sounds like clinical depression and you need medication or at the very least, get your dogs somewhere where they will be cared for.

What you do to you is what you do to you. What happens to your dogs however, is something else.

So ask yourself: do you want to get better, in which case call the doctor, or are you not bothered, in which case you drop those dogs off at a dog shelter.

You have responsibilities.

As well as what sounds like severe clinical depression.

whatswrong19 01/05/2017

could also be PTSD, (post traumatic stress syndrome). Have you experienced something really traumatic just before the numbness began?

bellabuck 01/05/2017

I'm so sorry you're feeling like this, Ellee. It does sound like you're dealing with depression and I'd like to encourage you to talk with your Dr about this. Do you have one? They should be able to help you with this. Have you ever thought about counseling? After having seen a counselor, I highly recommend it to help work through the things that are bringing you down. It took me 3 tries to find the right counselor for me and she's the one who recommended I see a Dr to get medical help. Sometimes the chemicals in our brain just need a little help to do what they're supposed to do.

Another thing I saw in your post had me thinking you're probably an introvert. Understanding my introversion has done amazing things for me, even in helping me understand my depression. I was laid off 8 months ago and have used some of this time to learn more about how I'm wired. It's helped me be more ok with who I am. There's a free online test if you're interested: https://www.16personalities.com/free-personality-test. I found this stuff fascinating. I found a couple of facebook pages on my personality type and I've been following them to keep on learning.

I just said a prayer for you, too. My faith in Christ has played a big part in helping me seek the help I need, and accept the help I need. I believe God brings the right people into our lives when we need them. And you coming on here just might be about that.

Debbalina 01/05/2017

Sometimes what others say can be the best barometer of how we're doing. Usually other people notice my downfall before I do. You DO sound depressed. Maybe so calm because you don't really care. That's the depression talking.

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