You could be dissociating a bit. It could be you are just hyper aware of your surroundings and emotions that you feel separate from what is going on.

I know exactly how you feel!

Yes I know exactly what you are feeling... it's like you're watching your own life and your own reality through a screen... right?

When we are depressed or becoming depressed one of the problems is that we begin to slowly lose touch with reality. Suddenly the face in the mirror that was pretty yesterday is horrifically ugly.. suddenly that text message our best friend hasn't returned in 2 days means she must no longer want to be friends... suddenly the outdoors seem unwelcoming but the indoors seem lonely and cold....

Part of that process of losing touch with reality is our dissociating from the world, our distancing ourselves - intentionally or not - from everything and everyone around us. It makes us feel alien in our own world, outcast in our own social group, and awkward in our own skin.

It's not a nice feeling, and it is terribly difficult to overcome. Honestly, in my experience, all we can really do is just ride it out, and try to defy it as best we can. We've got to force ourselves to be actively involved in conversations and to engage with the objects and people we come across. Slowly we begin to feel a little more connected and a little more at home.

Yes. I know exactly how you feel...And strangely, even online I can sometimes feel this way...

HUGS

"it's like you're watching your own life and your own reality through a screen... right? "
-exactlyyyy!!! yea like im not in it...it happens alot is tha tbad? i shud be in therapy soon..shud i tell her?

yes you should tell her - it is an important symptom of depression and ought to be noted.

ok i will...thank you!

Oh and in case you were wondering - it's a very very common phenomenon in people who suffer depression, so you're not "weird" or anything :)

thats very good to know....yea my biggest probllem is being afraid of sounding weird and so i just dont talk. u know?

This happens to me all the time. I have PTSD and this is
is called dissociation. I do actually feel as if I have left my
my body and am watching a movie of a strangers life. Sometimes
I am just gona........and when I come back it can be hours later.
Yes be sure to tell your therapist this information.

I feel like that a lot, like I am either there but behind a wall or watching from far away.... at the moment I know it is the meds, I can stay still unable to get my brain to move my body whilst irrational fears take hold or I can float away from myself when people and I are trying to talk.... I'm sorry for you, try and see someone to help you feel more yourself, when I can that is what I'm doing (woe is me for a second - my doctor has been shut down for being a douche, my psychologist has gone on holiday.... Love you NHS!!!)

i used to feel like this. i also used to have really bad panic attacks where after a few minutes i would go catatonic. i was so disassociated i couldnt speak. i could hear but it was like everything was far away. i think it was just my body's way of protecting me from the overwhelming feelings. it especially used to happened after therapy. its gone away now as i have talked about and sorted through some of the problems that were making me feel really bad.
so there is hope!

yea like i wud "leave my body" and when i do that i cant think my thoughts...im always getting lost in my thoughts and thats just my way to go away but when i leave i cant get into my mind

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You explained yourself very well. I know how you have felt during those times because I have felt the same way. Sometimes it's because I don't feel part of the "team" per sae, and other times I just want to be somewhere else, anywhere but where I"m at. Don't feel bad and know that you are not alone in your thoughts and feelings. It's sometimes hard to explain to others that haven't experienced the same thing because it can be puzzling. You are not alone hon.