I hear you. I've been digging out of the same hole for years. I'm looking at 2016 with some hope. There might be some change in my life finally. But every time I think that, something else goes wrong.

Hang in there. You never know what tomorrow will bring

DONT FEEL BAD.
U R BEING 2 HARD ON URSELF.
EVERYONE HAS PROBLEMS THEY CANT COPE WITH IF THEY WERE HONEST.
START THINKING U R BEAUTIFUL...........................
THE LORD THINKS U R.........................
GBU
DRENA
;-O

amanda. There are no magic pills. Try doing something positive to occupy your conscious mind and stop thinking negative thoughts. Work a jigsaw puzzle, when it is finished you will feel you have accomplished something

See my topic JUST WHEN YOU THINK...

I definitely relate to this. Maybe some cognitive therapy would help you.

Absolutely therapy will help. I was so scared to go, but it has been the best decision I've ever made. Try to find someone who specializes in an area that you are struggling with. I see that you have chronic pain, so maybe try to find a therapist who has experience with that. In the meantime, I highly recommend learning about mindfulness. It is so helpful in dealing with negative thoughts and self criticism. I really enjoyed the book Self-Compassion by Kristen Neff, which deals with mindfulness and self-esteem issues. And I recently read a book called Living Well with Pain and Illness by Vidyamala Burch, which is about using mindfulness to cope with chronic pain. It takes time to be able to apply the wisdom in those books (I've had to read them both a few times before it began to really "click"), but even if you find just one thing that really stands out and work on it, that's progress. Be patient with yourself, change takes time.

I know it's hard to reach out for help, but you won't regret it when you find a good therapist you trust. Even if it means trying different ones until you find one you like. A year ago I never would have thought I would have made this much progress. I'm still struggling but I'm beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel after 9 months of therapy and a lot hard work. If I can do this, so can you!

Yes, therapy will help you in controlling your emotions and get rid of negative thoughts. Go consult with a nice therapist and take antidepressants as well if required.

Yes therapy might help you, it is definitely worth the try. I can relate though on feeling very upset and worrying, and the negative and suicidal thoughts. It gets very tiring and it's a struggle to keep yourself under control.

Physical exercise sure works for me.

THANK YOU to all for your advice, i go friday to c the psych

I hope your appointment goes well and you will be on the road to recovery. Let us know how it goes!

the dr put me on latuda 40mg and lamictal 25mg, i pick them up monday i hope they help.

amanda, I hope they help too. thank you for being here today. I saw where you have posted and tried to help others. Thank you for that, we all need it sometimes.

I relate completely to what you're saying. I feel the same way too. Even if you start to feel a bit better, you always end up crashing.
It's hard to cope knowing there will always be a 'crash'
I hope the meds work for you and you are feeling better.
Hugs