Depression Support Group

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Feeling Bad Today

QPXZ
QPXZ
I don't know what it is but I feel especially bad today. I am depressed and very anxious. It is pouring rain and maybe that is a contributing factor. I am so worried about money. I have a seasonal job and will be running out of money soon and need to get something and everyone tells me there are no jobs. I can't get unemployment because of the changes made and they seem to target seasonal workers. I have been trying to lose weight and just binge out. I got a 2 week pass at a gym and was on my way but came home because I feel so anxious. I know that money is my biggest concern and I wrote how my fiancee died. I know that bad stuff happens to a lot of people but I just keep going over in my mind all the bad things that have happened to me in the past. I was happy with Stephen and felt he made up for all the bad. I can't believe that he died but at the same time not surprised that I lost him. When does anythimg good happen and why do some people have all the luck? I know people who are successful in careers and relationships and they think that it was because of their hard work or that they made it happen but I think a lot of it is luck. I think it is fate and we have very little to do with our lives being good or bad. Right now I am scared of everything and so worried. Does anyone else feel like this?

QP
deleted_user
deleted_user
Do you have any family that can help you out?

I know the feeling about bad things happening. After 35 years of bad things happening to me I feel like I am cursed or I might have some kind of personality disorder that's behind all these problems.

For now, I would concentrate on getting work somewhere else. What kind of seasonal work have you been doing?

I'm sorry about your fiancee but the fact he was in your life shows you're not totally unlucky.
trayanne76
trayanne76
Yes, I understand. especially the money issue. Don't listen to people who say there are no jobs, there are jobs, you just gotta be diligent and look. Something will happen. I get the panic too, sometimes, I find it hard to evven leave my bedroom, I get nervous, but doing better now. It just takes time, hang in there!
QPXZ
QPXZ
I live with my brother but I have bills and need money and hate to not contribute. The rest of my family lives far. I also wonder if I am cursed or if it is a personality disorder. I do know people who are egotistical and think rthey are better than everyone else when I think they just lucked out. I do taxes so there is only work during tax season. I will have to look but am so nervous. I knnow people say I was lucky to have my fiancee but it also doesn't surprise me that he was taken from me. I feel a bit better than yesterday so thank you for your responses. All I know is I think life is terrible and people say it is too short and I say it is too long. I have to live maybe another 40 or more years without the love of my life and have to pretend that all is right for others. Plus anxiety about money and depression. it is all too much.

QP