IDK how it works these days but when I went to LPN school it took just under a year. LPN's nowadays definitely make a living wage.

Something to consider.

CNA's are in high demand as well. Don't think the training period is all that long either.

And yes. 34 is much to young to decide you are all washed up! When I was in nursing school I met a woman who was 60 and going to MEDICAL school! Don't give up.

I have been suicidal and have always been glad I never did it because something always got better

I don't think I have what it takes to be a nurse, but wish I did. I respect nurses just about more than anyone.

I wish I had faith in things would get better for me, but they just seem to get worse. :\

as always .............pepperman .......has some great advice and great inside ....I my self ..have always thought I would loved to have worked in a gravel pit with the big machinery ..................................I have a son ...who ..is ..after ..being in the insurance ..bisness ...not being paid enough ....having to rely on ...what he sold ..to get pain ...and he is now going to school for ..a paralegal .....after .....all the training he went through for every kind of insurance ...there is .................................I have a nother son ......who also could not find a job in his field ....so he has ...opened ..his Owen bisness ..with a partner ...selling .stanless containers of all sizeses ..and ..solar pan ales for ...smal and larg ...jobs ..and ...outer ..things he sails to ...................................one son only has seasonal work ...one daughter ....ran her Owen daycar ..untill the government ..made it impossible for her to make a profit ....and they play faver it's ..here in the city ...but the government ...wanted these day cares started ..and opened all these corcess .for young girls to take ..as a life time job ....now they desided to put day cares in the schools and made her job obseleat .....so no more jobs in her field .....she is now back in school ..................I have one daughter ...who went to school ....or inanely for a loyer ..but ...became a probation officer .....and ..she is actualy working in her field ..and making a deasent living ..................................................................................................................so I just wanted to show you that ...in my family ..one out of five children were able to get a job in the field they went to school for ....I have a message I will get back to this ....

I am back ...to much going on here .....I belive ...that ...your depreshion ..is ..not allowing you to ..see ..alternatives ...so pepperman ...had a good thing for you to look in to ...and if you could ask for ..or look for ..other ideas that you might not of thought of ...you might be surprised at what you find ....sadly I am not from there so I don't know how your system works ........but here ...for certin jobs they will pay you to go to school for those..classes .....do you have anything like that there ....here there is also some help that you can get free...eather through volentears or the city ...to come and help them bath make and feed them ther breakfast and lunch ....and ..than ..my dad is at a seanurs home in the city ....some elderly stay in .low rental ...places ..and there is meals on weals ...so there meals are delivered to them .........so look into all these kind of things ..if you haven't already ...........if you have I am sorry for wasting your time ...........................................depreshion has a way or robing of us of our joy ..of seeing anything good ....in the present ...and ..making the future seam like a total ..loss .....but this ....is depreshion at work ...and it is a debases ...we must fight ..because we never know what our future can hold ....if I would of given up all those years ago I would of mised so much ....even thought it has been hard to stay her ..at times harder than others ..I am happy...I stayed .....I am 59 you are young yet ...you don't know what opertunity can cross your path ......I know that you ...can't see .the light ...at one time I could see no light ...even thought it was there I could not see it .....so trust me when I say ...look after your depreshion ..and you will one day see that light ...it is there just weaiting for you ...you just have to make it there ....message ..me any time you like ...when ever you like ...I am here for you ...my friend ...you have such a good soul ...sending you my love and ..lots of big hugs ....God bless

Thank you muskrattiger. You are such a dear, sweet person!

It's so hard for me to give you good advice at this time. I used to give positive advice all the time because I believed it.

But I'm in the same frame of mind as you right now and I think forever. I don't think A/D will work for me anymore. I spent yesterday all alone (no family any longer)l My cat was my family and I lost him a few months ago. I have another cat, but he is sick and causing me a lot of stress. No friends, no family, no love. I'm old enough to make the decision whether I want to go on or not. I wish there was a peaceful way to go for me. Why isn't there.

I'm not just depressed anymore (as I was on & off). I'm finished with my journey and a wonderful journey it was - but I want it to be over.

I can relate to what you say, Trudilu. I have a hard time giving advice any longer since I feel such despair in my own life. It's like how can I give others hope when I have none of my own? I also feel like my journey is coming to an end.

Now is the time to lean on us, you have been a good friend to us so let us return the favor!

Continuing hugs

Thank you and hugs to you Pepperman!

BlueYonder,
As I said before, you're too young to say your journey is over. I used to think that at times, but some inner voice or inner strength felt there just may be a lot of unexpected, positive tomorrow - and there were - so many of them.

Its just that I'm older - not old - but older, in my 60s. I never expected to be so alone or to suffer the pain of so many losses. I've lost faith in people (especially lately); if my cat were still alive, I'd never abandon him. Besides, he brought me a lot of joy and for that I was willing to live.

Hi Trudilu,
I guess I've lost the hope that there will be a positive tomorrow for me. I just don't see things getting any better. The loneliness eats me alive. I am trying to take things day by day, but it is hard with so much pain.

I do know how you feel about your cat. That is how I feel about mine. I am sorry you lost your dear cat. I know losing mine will be a crippling blow.

Blue,

This is the worst time of year for many of us. Keep hanging in there, don't let the now dominate your future!

Blue,
The fact that you mentioned your cat and said that his loss would be a crippling blow tells me right away that you DO have a will to live and go on. I mean, if you eventually intend to go through the sorrow of losing your cat; then you know you will go on. Am I right or wrong?

Also, you cat needs you; he will always need you and could you ever really abandon him. This soul should give you a wonderful reason and joy to live in itself. That's your joy right now. Let him help you.