Just want to say I know exactly how you feel at the moment. Life isn't easy sometimes. Hopefully the increase in your dosage will help and things will start to look brighter. Hang in there.

Well I don't know ware that line is it. could be wane you no longer now you have a problem but others can clearly see it .........I have often Thought that if I was only Insain I wouldn't be feeling all this pain ........money problems can lead to depreshion as can so Maney other problems ........and so you need to get it treated ...as you are. If you are sick every morning if that is phicaly than you schould tell the doctor and he might want to chang your meds ......you are not Insain just the opposite. .......take care of your self .....I will keep you in my prayers .....god bless

I understand how you feel. I owe the IRS, I have student loan debt I didn't finish school due to my mental illness, I am collecting unemployment and on food stamps and I feel worthless and like a parasite. Stay strong and take it one day at a time. I'm not sure if you are religious but maybe try praying. If you work hard enough at it your life will improve, you just have to stay strong and make the effort.

As far as losing it yes, I recently was targeted by hackers had stuff go viral have people out there wanting to see me suffer because it amuses them I'm alone isolated and feeling hopeless. Hang in there it will get better, if you feel like you need medication go talk to a doctor and see what they think. I'm no doctor but maybe you have situational depression, if you get back to work and still feel like you are then maybe get on something.

I don't think you are insane, it's normal feeling stress and hopeless when you are hurting financially. I don't know what you make a week it's none of my business but there are programs out there that help pay for training if you make under a certain amount. My state has something called Career Link. If you are under 25 you can have a place called Job Corps pay for your college and even live on the Job Corps campus rent free while you go to school. If you are having such trouble finding work maybe consider going back for training or education. Good luck though, your situation is far from hopeless take it one day at a time.

I know how you feel, I worry all the time about money, if I miss a day of work I could end up homeless, money is that tight. You're not insane, it just feels that way. I hope the higher dosage of your med will help you out. And no - antidepressants don't help a lousy life but they can help you see more clearly what you need to do to change things. I think getting that "real" job would help you enormously. Good luck with it, Big Hugs

Thanks for your replies. I think a "real" Job would help also. People like to say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger but I think it is the little successes that make you stronger. When everything goes wrong at the same time it is overwhelming. If the sickness continues I will tell the doctor. I hope the increase in dosage will help and make things look brighter.. I will look into Careerlink. We have that here also. I guess if I was insane I wouldn't feel this pain but the pain is driving me insane. I will be starting my seasonal job soon and it will also be a test of how I feel. I am sorry for all your problems Village and everyone else. I have become more religious and pray constantly. I always was but even more so. I will say prayers for all of us. Thank You.

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Villageiddiot001, you didn't do anything wrong.

You need to start asking yourself, where did my country fail me? You certainly are not the lazy one, you went to school everyday of your life to work hard and get your diploma. Then if that wasn't enough, you were selfless and wanted to better yourself to get a good career and give to society.

Your country should give you the tools to be able to do this. But it didn't, because the country is built upon greed. So the question you should be asking is, where did my country fail me? There was a time when collage was free, because it was seen that if a person could contribute to society, society grows and blossoms.

But now that greed operates the country and is the soul driving force for changes, now they don't care about a growing economy, they want us all poor so they can all be rich. I am telling you this so you don't blame yourself, cause its not your fault.

Again, your not the lazy one. Your the one going out there to better yourself and give to society. But society is the one who wont give you the tools to do that. Don't blame yourself, blame the ones who were supposed to help you but were never there.

I am so proud of you, I really really am. Don't you see how truly wonderful you are? You were not willing to feed off the system, you wanted to fuel it. You wanted a better education, and to be a better person. Just that right there is a success story.

So don't see your life has a failure hun, your not the one who failed here. Your the one who has been doing their best, your an achiever! You amazing! Your beautiful! Always remember that everday of your life because it is so true. And your more sane then you realize.

HUGGLES & CUDDLES
Ashley