never the right choice to do suicide......call the hotline and talk to some professionals.....

I'll try

Check yourself into the Emergency Department if you are super stressed. You have a bright future ahead of you e.g education, career, and a daughter to guide and protect. In death, you cannot achieve anything, and nothing will change.... your daughter and mother remained unprotected and uncared for.

I suggest that you request Social Security/Carers Provider to send extra carers to look after your Mom around the clock. Perhaps a temporary respite care may be considered if Mom needs extra nursing care.

Take care of your health Richie. Look at the situations with detachment, and don't get emotionally overwhelmed. Think of your situations as problems needed to be solved, not a son struggling to provide your Mom much needed care. By that way, you will not feel overwhelmed because there is no emotional attachment.

Don't try suicide. It will not make anything better.

There's always a better plan than suicide. The will to live is stronger than the desire to die. Besides suicide ain't so easy or everyone would be doing it.

Caring for a parent can be totally exhausting both physically and mentally. Make sure you are taking some time to tend to your own needs as well as those I. Your care. It's amazing how a decent sleep can recharge a mind and body. Hospice and respite care are great options for assistance, especially if there are not other family members willing to step up and help..
Please don't give up on yourself. Get help if you need it, call 988 (or 911) and talk to someone who understands and can talk to you.
Talk to your Dr they can help you find strategies to help manage your stress, and help you find a light within the darkness.

I have felt this way on and off my whole life. I won’t bs you, some people I feel like just are meant to suffer more and get dealt a shit hand in life. Try to change things that are in your control to make your life better. Hold onto the things that make life better. I don’t have kids but sounds like that is one thing that brings you happiness or goodness into your life. I find trying to do good in my life even when things are terrible helps. I’d like to blame everything out on things out of my control and man i have the worst luck but then i also struggle to get out of these bad luck situations, mostly bad relationships are my downfall. Anyways do as i say not as i do and get rid of people or things in life you do have the power to change that need to change. Ride out the tough times. Hopefully you have a better support system in real life than me.

I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling so down. I hope you can connect with a good therapist.

Hi I don't know you well but I get how you can
get worn down to a nub by life. You mentioned a daughter.
While you probably don't want to call on her too much
could you let her know that you're "just not doing well?"
Even a visit or call to your primary doctor might help get the
ball rolling for you. You are clearly feeling bad or you would not have posted here. Please keep us updated.

It's been hard all around "RichieRich" but why not share more about your happiness with your daughter?

From you, I'd rather hear about your relationship and happiness with your daughter than anything else. It is uplifting to hear what makes people's hearts skip a beat.