Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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tbbrandyn 01/29/2014

I am feeling so depressed right now and have been crying for a while. I am in the hospital right now with an IV in my hand and having ultrasounds done to check the fluid around my baby. I am 30 weeks along and I went for check up at the doctor yesterday and she wasn't moving like they would like her to be doing at 30 weeks and so I was sent to the hospital. I have been here since 4:30 pm yesterday and will be here till tomorrow sometime unless something changes. I have been crying for the last 2 hours wishing that I was at home with my two boys that are home wanting me with them. I feel like I am hopeless right now and there is nothing that I can do right now. I just want to know what is really going on with my baby and to go home. I know that right now it is best for me to be where I am at right now but what is killing me is that I don't have any answers and that is killing me the most along with the waiting.

I just feel like everything is going wrong with me right now and I don't know what I am going to do about everything that is going on. I hate not knowing what is going on with my body and being away from my kids. I just cant stop crying right now because of how depressed I am feeling. This is the first time that I have felt like this in a long time and I have been dealing with depression for a while. I have been off my meds since I found out that I was pregnant. so its been hard on me with everything but today I have hit rock bottom.

PinterestFan 01/29/2014

Maybe you can wash your face, and have something cool to drink,
concentrate on breathing - 4/7/8 in/hold/out, then focus on your
baby and your boys, positive thoughts and images -- this can help. The more calm you are, the better.

I hope things work out well, and you're home with your boys soon.

deleted_user 01/30/2014

Hello tbbrandyn,

I'm so sorry you're in this situation.

I like what PinterestFan suggested--that is focusing on the simple things that you have control over and giving yourself moments of relief because this evening will pass. Believe in the good possibilities too. I hope that you are not alone right now.

We're here reading your words and thinking good thoughts for you.

tbbrandyn 01/31/2014

Thanks everyone. I was finally about to get some what control of what I was feeling. I was laying the hospital bed crying and thinking to myself, I am 29 years old, a mother of two wonderful boys, about to have a little girl in a few weeks, I just need to get through this so that I can go home as fast as I can and so that the baby was ok. I even cried when they came to get my blood, which I never do, I just scream out a little because I hate needles. But I was about to finally get some sleep around 2 am after all the crying and having a headache. They did the ultrasound and I was told that I get to go home. I was do happy that when I called my finance to come get me that I was crying because I was about to go home to my kids.

Now I am at home and its 3:30am and have been trying to go to sleep since 9:30 pm. But a toothache that is killing me to where I am in tears because I cant sleep and I just want to go to sleep. SO here I am on here, got some homework done, getting some more laundry done and just sitting here in pain with this dang toothache. I have tried everything that I can think of and I just wish that it would stop hurting so I could get even a couple of hours of sleep. But that don't look like its going to happen right now.

gramybear 01/31/2014

You are going to get through this and you have 3 good reasons why! I remember when I was pregnant with my second boy and I started bleeding. I was so scared, as you are. Keep good thoughts and think about all of your babies. All positive and no negatives, okay? Let us know how you are doing as soon as you can. Hugs GB

stlake 02/01/2014

Hang in there! I know it must be tough, but won't pretend to say I know what you're going through.

In our house, we have some medical problems and don't know the answers. Praying and writing to dailystrength seems to help.

May the hospital can provide you with anti-anxiety meds.

I'm very sorry for you pain, but I hope you gain some strength knowing that others are thinking about you.

tbbrandyn 02/07/2014

Thanks everyone. I was able to go home last week after i had another ultrasound done and the fluid went up around the baby. But I am still feeling depressed but I am trying to do my best and trying to hang in there the best that I can right now. I will be 32 weeks Sunday and I am trying to do the best that I can without having to go back on the meds till after i deliver because I know its the best thing to do for being pregnant, even though my doctor said that if i need them he can put me on meds for my depression. I just keep thinking that in 8 weeks that i will be holding my new baby girl and my family will be even more complete. But I am not going to lie and said that I havent thought about asking for the meds a few times in the last few weeks.

Things seem to be coming around for my family some what. WE are waiting on our taxes to come back so that we can go and get a car since we have been without a car since early December last year and i have got a friend that lves in another state, OK, that is going to be mailing me a bunch of baby things that she doesnt have to mail but she is. She got the little boy that she watches mom to give anything that he has out grown and that is gender colored for me to help me out. Got someone my mom knows from her school that is going to get some things from her sister this weekend that has alot of baby things for us too. That have been the most thing that i have been worried and depressed about is not having what we need when i have this baby. When i was pregnant with my now 3 year old son, by this time in that pregnancy i had everything but little things that i had to get at the last minute. But now it seems to be failing into place. Now if we can just get a car, then i think that things will be better for us.

I am also been depressed because we havent had the money to do what we need to do. I talked to my finance and he said that he is waiting till after the baby is born to get another job with the scare that we had last week, he is scared that she could be born early and that he wont be able to be there. This is our last kid and i understand where he is coming on waiting till after she is born so he dont miss the birth. But its hard still not to worry about everything that has been going on around us right now and in the last few months. It just seems to get worse better it gets better for us. But i am trying to stay positive about it all and trying to stay stress free as much as i can.

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