i do the same all the time

one thing ive noticed tho... faking happy might not be as good as happy, but its a lot better than showing the depression, specially to friends

And not everyone is equipped to respond in a compassionate manner.

I've heard "suck it up" more times than I care to count

Please get past that. It's a thing of the past where men can't have feelings and show them. That is old school. When someone asks me how I am and I am depressed, I just say do you have about an hour? That usually stops them in their tracks and they don't go any further. But please, promise that you won't hide your real feelings? It's so important to share and let go of the pain. Hugs Gramybear

I had someone who I used to think was a friend tell me he got upset with me when I told him I had no idea how to answer that question.

I said to him "if I tell you I am good you say great keep it up"
if I said "I feel bad you would say well just hang in there"

He just looked at me like the asshole he is.

I gave up trying to put on a happy face. This is the real me, you don't like it then go to hell

I guess in my situation, if I am asked how I am, I would determine if I felt like opening up to that particular person. Sometimes it is hard to put into your words as how I feel.
Sometimes I just smile and say, taking life one day at a time.

Oh and men are human beings too. :)

I hide it a lot too. Sometimes it's just easier to say that Iam doing "okay" rather than being honest about the fact that it's pretty bad a lot of the time.

I will not go on

i want 2 b dead

Hi. You are really having a bad time of it. You are with people that understand. We do not expect you to suck it up. We want you you to use us to help you through these bad times. That is why we are all here, to receive and give help. You have to go on because you are needed and we care.
Feeling for you and sending big hugs my friend.

I often think people with depression are excellent actors because of the way we hide it at times

I am a little better right now. Talked to a pal who really helped me.He took my gun away for a few days just for safekeeping. Am sorry for earlier rants. Promised I would give it a few days. I wonder what I did that was so bad that I deserve to feel like I sometimes do? Some how I must have made God really angry

Really good to hear you are feel a bit better. Great that you have a good friend that you can talk to, that is important.

We all seem to be in the club for those that have pissed the big man off somehow I recon.

Earlier rants are what we all experience so no problems. Just glad you are in a better space right now.

Keep fighting my friend it is always worth it.

I recently came to realize I was hiding it and that's why my depression progressed as bad as it did. Thank you for sharing, hugs. You are not alone. For my own reasons, I have to work slowly at it and with the help of a counselor. Otherwise, these feelings come out but I suppress them again. It got a lot worse over the years. In recovery, there is finally hope. One day at a time :)

Sorry. When I first read the title of this post, I thought of my ex and sex. Apparently not what this post is talking about.

I fake my happy and okay moods to those around me. I dont want them feeling bad. I dont want to hear more of the same doesnt work advise and suggestions. But also because I dont want to loose people over me not being happy / okay. Yes, I feel I have to fake it or it ( relationships ) wont work or last. Sad, but life.

I say "fine" and change the subject, it's nobodies business how I feel unless I want to tell them. I have no reason to share my pain with anyone in real life.